Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Woo Wee

It has been a lot longer than I anticipated before I would post again.  I'll admit, I've been preoccupied. What with the holiday and all.

This is some stuff that I almost posted before:

It is the day before Christmas Eve. I can't even hardly believe it.  This year has flown by.  One year ago I was 5 days from getting arrested. Whaaa? It seemed like the end of the world then, but that's how it always looks in hindsight.  I'm excited for 2014.  It's the Chinese year of the green, wood horse. Fancy, huh? Supposedly that is supposed to mean good fortune in some way.  Couldn't we all use a little good fortune. I'm feeling extremely cheesy.  Maybe it's the holidays.

My mom is coming into town today, and she will be here all week.  It's going to be great, but I know by the end of the week I will be ready to have some space.  They are actually moving back into the house.  I'm going to beseech my mother not to paint my room.  I painted it myself back in high school.

Back to now:

I was surfing the interwebs when I came across this photograph.  It's terrible that some one can make this and it's funny and several people had liked and shared it.  For those who don't know, Rohyphnol is a "roofie/roofy".  It is a sad, sad world when we start making jokes about this sort of thing.

I'll have plenty when I move in 10 days.

Mav

Friday, December 20, 2013

20 December, 2013

I think that I shall just stay single.  I feel almost like I shouldn't even try.  I never try and all the guys I'm not attracted to like me then when I actually find a guy I like I attempt talking to him in a semi-regular way and it's like pulling fucking teeth.  To be fair, I can't really tell that he is being that way on purpose, but I can't help but think it wasn't so difficult before.  Also, having to make myself not talk to him.  Why should I have to make myself? I shouldn't feel like a nuisance when I want to talk to the guy I'm attracted to.  There is also the conundrum of not really being "in" a relationship and not really having any say in anything and not knowing him well enough to have any idea what he is thinking just adds up to one frustrating equation.  I wish I could just say hey and it be normal.  The other completely likely scenario is that I am just crazy and freaking out over nothing.  Which I am want to do. So I can't talk to him about it, I can't work it out for myself, so I'll just have to see...wait and see...and wait...I hope it is only I that is being a stupid emotional little girl.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

I like the way you like me best

It's going to be a while before we are all flying cars through the sky and we have skyways and stuff.  Not that we won't have the technology.  It's going to be expensive and it's a bit more complicated to learn to fly and take off and land safely.  Though I am sure by that point it will be halfway if not more automated anyway.  It'll be more like Minority Report.  Which is such a great movie.  I'm not a huge Tom Cruise fan, but that movie is really well done.

As the plane picks up speed down the runway it's wheels bump and clank along the asphalt and clamour together as they fold inside the hull.  I'm nervous.  I could die.  But my fear goes away and I wonder why I am afraid and I think to myself, "It'll be interesting to know what dying is like." It's another adventure.  However long or short it may end up to be.  Positive energy.

I went to Denver this past weekend.  I found a place to live.  It's a one bedroom of 600 square feet.  I'm super excited!! I can't wait to be there.  Today I put in my resignation notice and my last day is January 3rd.  I can hardly believe it.  After that I'll be packing and taking all my stuff to Peak's so that I can see his moms and spend some time at the farm before I am way to far away to make a weekend trip (by car anyway). Denver is a gorgeous city. I'm excited about the area.  When I move I'll have to upload some pictures, though if you follow me on Twitter or Instagram or Facebook then you will definitely see them anyway. Haha.

Also, Peak is giving me one of his puppy's puppies ^_^. I'm at work, wanted to update you at least. I feel as if big things are brimming in my future.

Ecstatically,
Mav


PS: met this guy...


"Life is fraught with opportunities to keep your mouth shut."

Sunday, December 8, 2013

one of those days

I want to write.  I feel like I have so much stuff to say but that I never am able to put it into words on this thing.  I am so much better when I can just talk to people. Is there not a job where I can just sit around and people come into my place and talk to me.  That's all I've ever done.  I was an RA for 4 years.  My job was literally sitting at a desk where people walk up to me and bitch and they pet my cat (as in Arda, not pussy you perverts) and then they feel better and they leave and I got paid for that.  I guess there is always psychology.  I like listening to people bitch.  I like knowing everyone's problems and keeping them all to myself.  I like it.  I like hearing it.  It's like I feed off it.  It's a situation where I don't have to talk a whole lot. Which I like, but also I know that I would have to give feedback...but fun fact...I'm really good at feedback. Sigh...the fact of the matter is that there are no right answers.  There is no perfect way to go through life. And I am almost completely positive that I will probably make the wrong choice every single time but I can hope that it all ends up to be a collective right decision.

Whatever....what is all of this? What? What am I waiting for? I'm too picky for my own good.....It's cool, it's over, no more complaining this post.  


Depressed,
Mav


PS: I'm sick and pmsing and all out of weed.  It's not an excuse...

PPS: It's an excuse.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

another body to grow old

I'm in this really strange feeling mood.  I just finished the Office.  Nine seasons.  I cried practically the whole time.  The last episode was so fucking perfect!! Everyone is there and their lives kind of come together and it's so satisfying.  At the same time it makes me look at my life and wonder what I am missing, if anything. What don't I see or understand? The path of life is so crazy.  It makes no sense, but there is no wrong way to go.  That's the really beautiful thing about it.  It's just one road, but it goes all over the place.

I really really really hope I get Ed Sheeran's album "+" for Christmas. I love it so much. I just want to listen to it all the time.  I mean, look at that face, and those eyes....and he has some sexy tattoos

I really thought I would have more to say, but I suppose I just don't.  I had a date last night.  He was actually pretty sweet.  I'm hesitant though, as always.  I mean I'm moving soon anyway, but also it would be extra annoying if he ended up being a womanizer.

Ed Sheeran "Kiss Me"
That's a live version so you can look at him sing this most beautiful song.
Here is the original though, for the quality.

Stay Classy,
Mav

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Happy (day before) Turkey Day

You may have noticed that the page has gone through a bit of a makeover.  I needed something fresh to look at.  Also, I wondered how easy it was to look at and read for some people. So here it is now.  What do you think?  I love it, and that's what really matters.

I've started taking these free online classes on open2study.com.  You don't have to give them any personal information which is really nice.  And the classes are free and set up with lectures and quizzes.  I think it's pretty great.  It's a free way to keep learning or to stay refreshed.  I'm taking a "Becoming Human" Anthro class to make sure I'm remembering all the information I spent 4 years of my life on. I'm also taking a "Writing for the Web" class.  That's what got me to thinking about how easy it was to look at and read my page.  It's also got me thinking about how I write too.  Granted, I know this is a personal blog so the theme of it is my thoughts and feelings and it's about my life and how I view the world.  And I put it out there so that you can know my perspective, compare it to yours, and possibly gain a deeper understanding of either yourself or the world.  Haha, when I actually say it it sounds really cheesy, but I think it's important.  But I still wonder if I should have set things that I talk about each blog.....hmmm fuck it.  It's like this blog is my mind on a page.  I probably couldn't change it if I tried.  If I did change it, it would probably be crap and no one would look at it anymore.  The point is to have sort of a working current journal. I accomplish that single point.  See the class is paying off already lol

I may or may not update tomorrow. It is Thanksgiving day and I am not doing anything except my Cal (I heard that the proper term is "Cal" and that saying they lived in "Cali" was kind of an insult >_<) marine friend is visiting who I haven't seen in forever! So that will be great. If I don't update tomorrow then it will be next week.  I'm visiting my bestie, Peak, this weekend for his 21st birthday! Little scamp, just growing up so fast. But I will be getting to go to a casino with him for the first time ever.  So I will definitely have a good bit to say after the weekend.  It really just all depends on whether or not I will post Thanksgiving day.  Which I guess I probably shouldn't because everyone will be with their families and wont read it anyway.

HA! Who am I kidding? We are all so glued to our electronic devices and staying up-to-date on our social media outlets that I will probably post and you will probably read it too! Though I must say the chances of me posting tomorrow are downright small, but at least we've had today!

Of Monsters and Men "Little Talks"
This is a pretty great band.  I know that I love this song.  I've heard some of the other and they are pretty good too, but this one is probably my favorite I've heard so far.


Cheerfully,
Mav

Monday, November 18, 2013

No Good Title Came To Mind

Here we are wrapped up in the digital era.  They call it the "technological age". Like we've never been technological before...but I get it.  Everyone is fucking attached to their cellphone/computer/laptop/tablet.  There's no escaping it.  everything is there.  Our lives becoming defined by what we say we do on our Facebook or Twitter.  Your friends are the ones that give you the most likes and that you like mutually as much.  It makes dating awkward as fuck.  You get to know people online in a situation where you have unlimited amounts of time to respond and say something witty or funny or charming or flirty.  It's a whole new dynamic.  Even now I am writing this out on my phone to post in my blog.  I communicate with you, my readers, through the Internet.  Through a computer or phone.  You don't actually know me, but technology gives the sense of intimacy.  If you know all my likes and see my pictures then you know me.  In a way I suppose it's good.  Fantastic networking.  Meeting people in places that you never would have otherwise. Giving boundless opportunity to travel or learn or just try something new.  But at the same time it adds a lot of crap.  Spam emails.  Endless advertising about everything under the sun.  (There is this stuff called poo-pourri now...seriously it's real!) (Also! I found the blooper reel from that commercial.) But also your information is less secure.  Yea buying online from that fancy little shop two towns away is way more convenient, but your contact information (Can you shout, "JUNK MAIL!"?) and potentially your financial information is out there.  But I guess that's how it works.  Always a trade.  Convenience for less security or more work for more security.  But it's also the process of our species (our humanity).  We will continue to explore and learn and further manipulate the environment.  People are so very afraid of this manipulation.  That we should leave "nature" alone.  But honestly, there aren't written rules on what we are supposed to do.  We place those on ourselves.  We don't have messages from other intelligent species from other times in other places.  We are just feeling this thing out.  So it's not right or wrong, it's just change.


Maniacally,
Mav

Ed Sheeran "The A Team"
I love this song.  I love Ed Sheeran.  I remember when I got to listen to this song stoned for the first time.  It was pretty mind blowing.  Check out his other stuff.  It's a command, not a request.

The Cranberries "Linger"
Throw back.



"The enemy is fear.  We think it is hate, but it's fear."

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Maybe I'm Just Fine

So I was scrolling through the Book of Faces and I came across [thiss=><=clicky] and it made me despair just a bit.  It's not just a presumably hot girl with a geeky shirt on pretty much saying she will be every mans fantasy, but it shows that not even the nerds are free from societal constraints.  At least you used to know if you were hanging out with a geek you didn't have to worry about being judged for anything but your lasting knowledge of how to play all the songs from Ocarina of Time and Twilight Princess. But now we don't just want a hot bimbo.  Even if you want a hot bimbo, nerds have decided that they want both the eagerness to travel to conventions and the banging bod to pull off a hot Harley Quinn. Being a nerd is kind of the cool thing to be these days.  And that's great.  I love it.  It means that more people are enjoying the things that I myself love and it's bringing people together and it's helping to awaken the consciousness.  But please keep your unrealistic ideals to yourself.  There is no need to make life more annoying for high school kids.

Staind "So Far Away"


Rocket,
Mav

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Stoner Thoughts on Thoughts

(I MEANT TO POST THIS FOREVER AGO AND FORGOT ABOUT IT. IT'S A BIT RANDOM)

It tastes like purple flowers, man.

When you're baked and you're doing it just because the piece is clogging and not because you are dry, scraping res is like the most relaxing shit ever.

Goodbye India: Awake My Soul
Love this little video.  Love Mumford & Sons.

There are people that you connect with.  In certain situations or at particular moments where at the same time you are in sync.  Your souls are in time.  It's not a big idea.  It doesn't mean you're in love or whatever.  It just means that at that moment you are connected.  Then that moment cycles by and is gone.  But it's those moments that are important.  The ways that we connect and interact and work together to create the reality around us, that's important.  Because that's what life is all about.  The experience.  Because you can't un-create an idea.  A thought wave.  And it's not the difference between humanity and nature.  It's all nature, and when you realize just how connected it all is and how it's all the same and how it's all important then it's amazing how the worry just kind of fades away amongst the stars.

I sat there and listened to him ramble about skateboard moves and I nodded and "uh-huhhed" over and over and I thought, "This is it."  No screeching eagle overhead or long shot of the sunset over the desert horizon. Our lives are seemingly unremarkable.  I sat there thinking, "Is this what it is?" This is the dream? Freedom really just means being able to smoke a bowl with your mates in your room and not worry about it being a problem with anyone. Right? Freedom is non-warped vinyls.

I know.  It's been a while.  I've been mostly just trying to plan moving to Colorado.  I'm so ready to just be there.  I just want my place that I'm staying and all my shit is already there and like it's first night and I'm sitting there with my bestie rolling a bowl.  I'm ready for that.

If I had to I could stay here until the Spring, but honestly I think I would be miserable if I didn't make it in January.  I have to make it happen.

So I'm 24 now.  I don't feel super different.  I do feel older. Like when I think back it seems like I could almost go back to my dorm room at any time and be back in college but really it was over a year and a half ago that I left there.  Time has passed that quickly.

Mav

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Monday, November 11, 2013

Music Challenge

Some news to start the post is that I have recently gotten back on Twitter.  I know...societal drone and whatnot.  If you'd like some regularly updated sarcasm about life and whatever then give me a follow @TympanicPulse. My name is Mav. I have some illusion about there being a veil between us so that you don't really know who I am.  But then again does it matter if you know? Does that ruin some part of the idea or message? Whatever. If you think I'm interesting, then my twitter is the thing for you.

So my best friend, Peak, doesn't think I listen to enough music so he has given me this big long list of songs that I just HAVE to listen to.  So I'm going to take you with me and let you ride the music train with me :)

We have a total of 36 songs.  Some songs off the original list have been removed because I already knew and loved them.  A couple had actually been songs of the day in the past. (for example: Passion Pit's "Sleepy Head" and Black Keys' "Tighten Up".) Don't expect official vids for all of these, but I'll do that as much as possible.

So I don't have them listed in any particular order, but I may do some sort of rating as I go (on a scale of 1-5, with 5 being the best).  At the end I will list my top three favorites that I like.  The #1 pick will be the song of the day.

But I'm going to kick off this music journey with:

1- Whitest Boy Alive "Burning"
The video is interesting.  It's kind of 80's throwback, but not as cool.  The song is extremely chill.  I bet it's great for cruising! Get this song and on the next sunny afternoon go driving down a long road with a cigarette and just jam.
4.2 (I have a feeling almost all of these songs will be above 4 stars.)

2- Pretty Lights "If I Could Feel Again"
I'll be totally honest, I've not really listened to much of any Pretty Lights before.  I can tell that this is one of those songs that I'll listen to again.  Especially later, when my mind is in a better state ;)
4.3

*scampers off to fetch more coffee*

3- Miley Cyrus "Someone Else"
I've kind of avoided the whole Miley Cyrus everything that has gone on.  But for the sake of my bestie, I will listen to her.  It's not that I don't respect her talent, I just think shes a child.  It's strange to have basically watched her grow up.  I think this was a good song for me to start listening to her with though.  Because it's really introspective.  Her voice kind of sounds a bit auto tuned and sort of garbled like she has a grill in her mouth. The chorus is pretty rockin' though.
4.2 
(I might like it more after I hear it several more times on other occasions.)

4- Fall Out Boy "Golden"
It's good. Extremely melodic and lots of harmony.  It's nice, but not my favorite style.  It's a bit raw as well.  I feel really snotty judging this stuff, like I am qualified to make any type of criticism. It was good.  I didn't love it.
3.9

5- Florence and the Machine "Dog Days Are Over"
My thing with Florence and the Machine is that I like it, it just usually get's so just cacophonous and I just want to be like, "Ok, that's enough, need a new song." This song is ok, but some of them get that way.  She's a belter.  She just pushes every note out. That's her style.
4.1

6- Frank Ocean "Thinking About You"
I'll be honest...this song just sort of bores me.  The thing about it is that some music wont connect with you unless you are going through something or in a certain point in life.  Also, the video is strange...but pretty decent.
3.5

7- Lorde "Bravado"
I love Lorde.  I love that song "Royals" (which was removed from the list because of that reason. feel free to go listen to it on it's own.  This song has a pretty great beat.  And I like the way she does her lyrics.
4.5

8- Panic! At The Disco "This Is Gospel"
It's just interesting how different this list is, compared to what I would give him.  The video for this song is pretty cool.  I've liked panic though for a while.  They are awesome.
4.7

9- Alex Clare "Hummingbird"
I've loved Alex Clare's "Too Close" since it came out.  I enjoy his vibe.  He is funky and I appreciate that.  This song is nice and earthy, but not in too much of a way.  Ugh, girls drawing on mirrors in lipstick....This video is a tumblr photo album haha. Look up "hipster on tumblr" on Google, and you'll find this video. haha yea pop those balloons. I like it, not as much as "Too Close", but that song also came at a very pivotal moment in my life where it was pertinent.
4.1

10- Miley Cyrus "Drive"
Miley has this whole throwback early 00's club beat type thing going on haha. I don't know, I just don't really care for her style haha. I think this little fanmade video is pretty nifty though.
4.3

11- Fall Out Boy "The (After) Life of the Party"
Why did she just leave a person who looks just like her outside? I would have had some serious questions about that. Oh I see....is it like a gender identity thing? Because I can get down with that.
4.5

12- Kimbra "Settle Down"
This beat is fun.  It reminds me of "Aha" by Imogen Heap.  Not quite.  I think the young girls in the video are so pretty.  They have wonderful freckles.  Kimbra is delightfully herself.  Kind of bluesy and jazzy and funky and poppy.  It's a great mixture.
4.8

13- Lorde "Biting Down"
I thought when Peak named this one to me that he said "fighting" down.  Haha, figured it out though when I went to YouTube it.  This reminds me of Moby's "Porcelain".  Don't ask me why.  Probably the repetition.
4.3

14- Panic! At The Disco "Miss Jackson" (feat LOLO)
I think that Panic is a great group.  They have a lot of talent.  They have their own sound.  They're great. The buildup in this song is fabulous. I think they've grown so perfectly as a band. Since "I Write Sins Not Tragedies".
4.8

15- Yacht "Dystopia (The Earth is on Fire)" 
So apparently it's a twofer video where the first part is called "Utopia".  But it's kind of weird.  Like a La Roux knockoff.
3.0

16- Alex Clare "Treading Water"
Sometimes there just isn't anything to say.  It's a pretty good song.
4.1

17- The Black Keys "Next Girl"
Nice little backwards sounding thing in the beginning.  The clever video makes me want to give it a higher score haha.
4.8

18- Miley Cyrus "Adore You"
This is our halfway point song.  how ya doing? Need to get a drink, have a wee? Well go on.  The post will still be here. I know, all the little ads are annoying, but get over it.  I just think she is boring.  Haha.
3.5

19- Fall Out Boy "The Mighty Fall"
I'm pretty sure at some point I told everyone on here to watch all the videos that go with this album "Save Rock & Roll".
4.3

20- Good Shoes "Under Control"
Body builder ladies weird me out a little.  I think it's great that they are proud of their bodies and everything and that they are in good shape.  But it's just crazy.  To be fair, male body builders creep me out too.  There is just so much muscle...
4.2

21- Lorde "Glory And Gore"
I think Lorde and Glitch Mob should collaborate.  This song reminds me very strongly of Fortune Days by Glitch Mob. I mean not totally, but the way the beat drops in the chorus is very reminiscent.
4.4

22- Panic! At The Disco "She Had The World"
This song reminds me of Christmas.  I thought of Tiny Tim and A Christmas Carol.
4.0

23- Alex Clare "I Love You"
I like that this video is made by an outside group.  I think it says a lot about what the song is about when you can hear/see how people interpret it. Video is intense.
4.3

24- The Black Keys "Little Black Submarines"
I'm really diggin this song.  It's got a good intro, good pick up, good sound. I love their voices. You know I liked it, when I clicked "Like" on YouTube.
5

25- Miley Cyrus "Maybe You're Right"
This is the best Miley song suggested thus far.
4.5

26- Fall Out Boy "Young Volcanoes"
As my dad would say, "It's got a good beat, and you can dance to it."
4.6

27- Kid Kudi "Pursuit of Happiness" (feat MGMT)
I've heard this song before, but it's been a long time. It's still as good as I remembered. Love MGMT. This song used to be on a commercial with skateboarding haha. I remember it.
4.3

28- Lorde "White Teeth Teens"
3.8

29- M83 "Midnight City"
I've heard this song before I just didn't remember. I think I've only heard it maybe once before though, and I never watched the video.  Special children.... The chorus part is really good, but the rest is kind of....um I don't know...It just all sounds the same!
3.

30- Panic! At The Disco "Ballad of Mona Lisa"
Steampunk.  Classic Panic! They've always been a little bit steampunk. Pretty catchy chorus.  They are so (what's the word) almost operatic.  Very melodious and big sounding. He looks like a vampire. Cool video.
4.6

31- Zedd "Stay The Night" (feat Hayley Williams)
Peak is so in love with Paramore, I am not surprised he loves this song.
4.2

32- Alex Clare "Damn, Your Eyes"
A fancy Etta James cover.  This is the kind of music he just rules.  That bluesy sound.  That's why I loved "Too Close" so much.  It had that same vibe.  I'm digging this though.  I could slow dance alone in my room to this.  Right after "Red House" by Jimi.
4.9

33- Ellie Goulding "Tessellate"
An Alt-J cover. After this list/blog, I am going to have a cig.  I have mixed feelings on Ellie Goulding.  Sometimes I really like her, but other times her voice annoys me.  This song reminds me a little of Crave You by Flight Facilities.  Like the beginning part.  I don't know why.
4.4

34- Fall Out Boy "Calm Before The Storm"
This is an older song.  Fall Out Boy has it's own unique sound.  You can always tell it's them.  I'm just not as big a fan of this kind of music as much anymore.  Not at this point in my life.  I'm sure it'll come back around....maybe.
4.0

35- Lorde "Tennis Court"
She likes to sit right in front of the camera during her music videos.  She is so pale in this video.  She isn't even singing.  She's just sitting haha. I don't know. I like them.
4.0

36- Panic! At The Disco "Sarah Smiles"
Peak played this song for me a while ago and I liked it then and I like it now.
4.5

It can be hard to listen to so much new music all at once. I think it maybe even makes you a harsher critic. The other thing that I should probably take notice of is how my musical tastes differ from Peak's.

My top 3 songs:

We had two different songs tie for 3rd, each with scores of 4.8: Kimbra - "Settle Down" and Panic! At The Disco - "Miss Jackson"
Coming in for 2nd place with a score of 4.9 is "Damn Your Eyes" by Alex Clare

And THE WINNER, with a score of 5.0, our new song of the day and first place champion is: "Little Black Submarines" by The Black Keys.

It's been fun. I hope you enjoyed the music.  Time for that cig now.


Enigmatically,
Mav

Also, I drew this comic yesterday. Thought I'd share. Happy Monday!



"In life you are the paint, the painter, and the painting."

Sunday, October 27, 2013

I've been waiting so long to be where I'm going

Sitting in my window with a bowl and a glass of red wine.  I feel especially relaxed today.  It is my birthday.  I am 24 today.  Some realities of moving to Colorado are getting increasingly scary the closer they get.  It will for sure be an adventure.  No, I don't really feel all that different from my 23 year old self, but every year our birthday reminds us of the time we have left and how we have spent our time before.  I think it's going to be a good year for me.

I think I am more pensive than I was when I was just turning 23.  Perhaps I am feeling still a bit detached from the world.  I worry that I will end up being a hermit when I move.  That my natural lone tendencies will leave me friendless in my new city. And part of me is okay with that.  I kind of just want to be anonymous.  I don't feel like I'll be able to keep that up for long though.  It's the way of our kind to seek out friendships and companions.  COMPANIONS!!! oooo WEEEEE ooooo  dooo deee doooooo

I'm just really excited to have my own place and be able to do anything I fucking want.  Just me.  I think I'm going to love it.  Decorate any way I want and burn all the incense I want and be as messy as I want. It's just time for this part of my life. I'm ready for it. I think big things are headed my way.  I just feel really good about it.

Mav


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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

We're driving Cadillacs in our dreams

Royals by Lorde
This song is just super great.  I've been jammin out to it a lot these days.

So I'm free.  Feels like it's been forever and at the same time not at all. It was interesting sitting in that church (because you graduate in the church across the street) surrounded by all the other graduates.  I knew one person and he didn't even sit next to me because we were placed alphabetically.  Everyone right around you becomes your instant best friend.  You joke together, roll your eyes together, get pissed off at the same stuff.  It's just interesting how we connect with each other as humans.  We so easily accept people by common experience.  It makes me wonder about prejudice now...how even it can exist now.  You'd think that being so smart we would've learned a long time ago that peace works so much better for the good of everyone, right?  I mean, it's elementary. Such a simple idea when thought of grandly can be unstoppable.  I mean how easy would it be if you looked at the options as more black and white like I can either a) get over my differences with this person and live together in a mutually beneficial way or b) decide that the differences between us are only going to be overcome by hatred and warfare in which not only I will probably die but hundreds and thousands of people who wanted nothing to do with the argument in the first place with also die. To me the option is pretty obvious.

I'm thinking of redying my hair purple.  Not like a cheesy bright purple but like a deep rich  pretty purple.  And before I just had the underside of my hair dyed, but this time I'm gonna do my whole head.   It's gonna be so great!!  If you follow me on instagram (@TympanicPulse) then you will be keeping up with when my hair actually changes and what it looks like.

Also, I'm going to learn to skateboard.  I'm saving up now for the board.  My life feels endless.  I suppose it's the age I'm at.  It just feels like my life is so extensive.  I will be so many people before it's all over.


On the fucking moon,
Mav

Friday, October 11, 2013

*whispers* seven days

So yea...I'm off in one week.  I can hardly wait! Feels good.  Been on a cloud all day.

Movie of the week has got to be The Ring.
I saw the Ring 2 when it came to theatres, but I just watched The Ring today for the first time and it was phenomenal.  I'm not surprised it's so highly acclaimed. I had chills the whole movie.  The suspense is perfect, the mystery, the moments of terror.  Real terror is in the questions.  Movies where you know exactly what is happening aren't as scary. They are kind of predictable.  I even watched it in broad daylight and I was still practically falling out of my seat.  So watch it.

Is it like against my whole thing to not have a song of the day?  Oh well, don't have one.  Get counseling if you need to.  I know it's hard to accept change.

totes,
Mav


"There is no path to happiness:  happiness is the path."


7 days

Friday, October 4, 2013

Two weeks

Not a lot to say.  Seriously, I'm just counting down. My mom is coming home today.  We are going to the fair tomorrow with the family and celebrating my birthday on Tuesday.  My brother says he got me something he can't give me in front of mom, which excites me because it means I'll probably love it haha.  Also, I've started putting stuff I've made on Etsy.  My shop name is Threshold Art.  I only have one thing on there now, but it will grow soon.  Living the dream. I also got responded to about an inquiry on a place to live in Colorado! That makes me really excited.

What Would You Do? by City High
This song is a blast from the past.  I remember it being big when I was in middle school. Whaaa? I'm old.

Anyway, One Way Or Another by One Direction.
This song is a good cause and there is a lot of crap surrounding them.  Honestly, I enjoy them.  I'm not throw my panties around in love with them, but I like them.  I think it would be interesting to talk to them and see where they wanted to go.  I would like to see them start expanding and creating original music. I don't know them, but I bet at least couple of them could do it, but they have all helped write some of the songs already.  Grow little caterpillars! Sprout wings and come forth a butterfly!

Shit's getting weird now.

Anxiously,
Mav


14 days

Friday, September 27, 2013

I play the fool hoping you don't see through me

I'm realizing I need to save a lot more money.  I mean, not a lot I guess, because I will find a job, but every little bit will help.  My birthday is coming up and my family is asking what I want and honestly I don't want any things.  I would rather have the money to move.  Though I think my brother is gonna get me a record player which is awesome.  They were all confused as to why I was leaving.  Everyone expects me to have a job lined up or something.  God! It's called living.  Taking chances, even if they're kind of crazy.  I don't want to skirt through life doing easy things.  I want to struggle.  I'm not worried about finding a job.  I have enough money to last long enough for me to find one. They picked on me about picking Colorado.  Saying the only reason I'm going is because of legal weed.  Which is not true, but I wouldn't expect them to know.  The major difference between them and me is that they are sort of home bodies.  And I have to get away.  I don't want to live in the same town as my family forever.  I want to go somewhere totally new where I don't know anyone and live.  It's simply a perk that weed is legal.  It's not like being somewhere it's illegal would stop me from smoking it anyway. I'm ready to be done.  I'm close.

Electric Feel by MGMT

Mav


21 days

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice

The Chase
This is an animated short film featuring Gorillaz music.  I enjoy these types of short films.  In fact...here is another.  I actually can't remember if I possibly have already posted it, but oh well.

Skhizein
It's a wonderfully deep film. It's all about the mind and dealing with life and how things are difficult but once you accept yourself then the rest of the world falls at your feet.  That's my interpretation anyway, feel free to see it however you want. Enjoy.

So I've planned a visit trip to Colorado for Dec 12-15.  I'm excited.  Hopefully I will find an apartment and maybe look at some places that will be/are hiring.  I'm so ready to be up there.  There are things I will miss of course.  The searing heat turning the black asphalt to water and the endless thrum of crickets and cicadas singing to me while I sit in my bedroom window.  Speaking of, my bedroom window has a most gorgeous view of the sunset that I'm sure I wont have there.  I'll also miss the lazy, drawling accents and southern cuisine.  There is beauty in this place, but my soul longs to brush through the tall grass of new beauty in new places.

Cousins by Vampire Weekend
This was one of their first really big songs.  I love it.  It's so great.  It's so funky.

Excitedly,
Mav


25 days

Monday, September 23, 2013

Hello.... is this thing on?

I don't really have anything to say.  Honestly, almost all I think about these days is how close I am to being done.  26 days now, and every day is like starting the countdown all over again.  Yesterday was 27 days, but today is a whole new day.  What is 27?  That is the past.  I only have to wait 26 days.  Almost as if I haven't already waited 265 days.  There is only today.  Each day is a countdown.  A beginning. An end. A victory.  I think that is how we should look at life.  This day.  This moment is the only moment that we have any control over.  Right now.  This moment is my victory, my countdown.  And I am winning them all.  Like a mother fucking boss.  So I declare that in 26 days at noon you should all share a bowl with me.  Of course it will be your own, but know that we will be toking together.  You've all been so good to stick with me through this hiatus of thought and happiness.  I will be back soon, however; and all your patience will not be for naught.

Barracuda by Heart
Just felt like this song today.  It's been on my mind.  I am also going to post a live version so you can see them actually performing. Which is always cool, but the quality blows so that's why it's not the main SotD.


Who's that girl?

It's Mav!


26 days! (as if you didn't already know)

Friday, September 20, 2013

Sup

I just have to post this because I think it's really hauntingly beautiful.  This song is transformed into a dark ballad about homosexual love.  It's fantastic.  It's just Dolly Parton's "Jolene" slowed down from 45 rpm to 33 rpm (25%).  You may have seen it on Buzz Feed. Give it a couple listens and really take in it's pain.

 Jolene (slow) by the voice of everyone who has been in this situation.

Ponderingly,
Mav

28 days!

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

One Month

Today might seem a very special post.

I'd like to start with a couple movies.

Spirited Away is the first.  The preview is dubbed in English, but I fully recommend watching the movie with the English subtitles instead.  When I watched this movie I really wasn't quite sure what to expect. I completely understood why it is one of the highest rated anime films after watching it.  It's phenomenal.  If you like magic and mystery and love and adventure then you'll like this.

Howl's Moving Castle is the second.  It is also made by the same director as Spirited Away.  Again the trailer is in English, but I really urge you to watch it with English subtitles.  It just gives you a better idea of the voices of the characters and everything.  This movie is amazing too.  It had me laughing and crying (good tears) and completely sucked in.

Here is a comic strip that I found to be really profound and think that everyone should give it a look.  It's a touch long, but totally worth the read.
A Day at the Park

There is this page on Facebook that I have recently been turned on to.  It's called "fundies say the darnedest things" and it's essentially just posts of found statuses made my hyper religious people. It's pretty funny.  Mostly the posts just make me sad and despair for humanity, but the comments give me my hope back.  What I have come to find the most consistently true is the amount of blind, questionless faith these "fundies" have.  It's like they think asking questions is wrong and should never be done.  They have been raised in a time warp of Christianity that is unchanging and therefore not really relevant in our world.  Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with religion.  We all need ways to cope with our lives and ways to answer questions and something to have hope in.  For some, like me, we get hope from ourselves and the world around us the just the simple joy of being able to experience this little life while we can no matter what it means in the future.  For others, it's the need to feel part of something much bigger.  What I don't agree with is mindless belief in something that you 1) don't really understand yourself and 2) condemn the rest of the world for not following. My biggest beef with most religions is that they don't allow for adaptation or change within it's worshiping population.  We are not our ancestors.  We have different ideas, different needs, different rights, way more people, and a hell of a lot more problems.  We amend the constitution all the time (as one example being as I am American) but we look at a bible created thousands of years ago and still expect it to have our best interests in mind.  I know, I know, "But Mav, the bible is divinely written" blah blah blah.  Having divine inspiration does not make it written by Christ.  People are divinely inspired all the time.  Usually they are standing on street corners telling us to repent.  Do we listen to them? What also makes me smile about the comments on this page is that the non-"fundies" (rationals, radicals, smart people) in most cases have a much better understanding of what is actually written in the bible or what laws there are that should be followed.  It shows me that being raised in this non-questioning group they really don't know what they are talking about.  They have never taken the time to have their own questions answered, to seek the truth.  Searching for truth doesn't make you less of a believer, it just makes you smart.  I also learned that everything that they don't believe is Satan.  This is coming from people who supposedly "follow" (even though I'm pretty sure they just use Christianity as an excuse to be bigoted) a man's ideals that included hanging out with seedy people and loving them just the same.  Of every religion, I think Christianity is the pushiest. They just want to shove it down everyone's throat.  Like on Orange is the New Black....and that didn't end well for her.

Breathe Me by Sia
This song is really good and I really enjoy the artistic style of the video.

Patiently,
Mav

30 days O_O


"The phenomenon develops calmly, but it is invisible, unstoppable."

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

time goes by....so slowly

Don't Fear The Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult
I love this song so much.  It is perfect in almost every way.  And it's funny because it goes with me playing Mass Effect 3 right now.  Because fear the reaper is all anyone is doing.  I never took much notice of how the Citadel falls into ruin as the game progresses.  If you haven't played that trilogy I encourage you to do so.  It is so well done.  I've played it through 4 times and 5 or 6 times on the first one and I still find new things every time I play.  But I think I am going to pick up Bioshock again.

My brother and I got to brainstorming about the Halloween birthday party we are having in a month and I had gone to the Dollar Tree and bought a whole bunch of stuff.  So we first just did one thing just to see how it looked.  Now, half the house is decorated! Haha, might as well just go ahead.  But now we know exactly what we need. It's going to be such a great party.  I can't wait to write about it.

Excitedly,
Mav


37 days

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Show me what you got for me!

Cry Me A River by Justin Timberlake
Never forget!
It's impressive that such a downright creepy video has been so loved.  The song it great.  To this day it is one of my favorite Justin songs.  The song shows basically a stalker breaking into a girl's house and getting weird in their just for the rush and then following her around through her house only to hide in her closet and watch her get in the shower and then slide up to the glass like he either wants to jizz right there or kill her (hard to tell).  Another thing....how did this girl not notice her window smashed in?! She walks right fucking by it.  He comes in right where she takes off her coat.  Dumbass.  A cool thing about the video though is the way he moves around like he is on strings.  A little throw back to both his N'sync days and some Jamiroquai type style. I'm including the Pop-Up Video Version.  It would just be the main one I do, but the quality is kind of crap so it's just something extra, because I find them cool. Also it's not the main because it annoying cuts off towards the end.  But the facts are interesting, nonetheless.

Señorita by Justin Timberlake
Because we should not forget what he has come from. It's all been beautiful.  I used to wear this album out! He looks so young haha.

I've been getting stuff for my party coming up in October.  This month I am going to be testing all different kinds of snack foods to bake.  Ian and my coworkers will be taste testing my creations.  The good ones will be uploaded on here with the recipes so you can enjoy the awesomeness as well.  One day I will have my own bakery shop.


Happy,
Mav


38 days BITCHES!!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Let's all nerd out

I have been at Dragon Con all weekend.  It was amazing.  My first con and I will not soon forget it.  There were so many different kinds of people all dressed up.  Everyone was so friendly too.  You can talk to anyone around you.  And the best part is that you get to discuss super nerdy things like it's completely normal conversation.  I thought, "I belong here." Because that's how I talk all the time (when I'm not being deeply poetic and existential haha). But the cool thing is that there are so many different panels for all sorts of interests.  I got to see the voice actors for much of the Futurama cast (which was bloody fucking hilarious) and I saw James Urbaniak speak who is Dr. Venture.  I also saw Space Ghost.  Ermahgerd I was crying I was laughing so hard. And I got to go to these other two panels on the skeptics schedule (skept track) and we talked about how everything is just your brain making patterns and about how crazy people try to skirt society using pseudolaw.  It was really interesting.  I want to go to more skept track stuff next time.  I didn't dress up this year, but I already have a lot of ideas for dressing up for my next con.  Not only is there dressing up and panels galore, but there are also all night rave parties that are so much fun your feet will want to fall off dead afterwards.  A couple mornings I didn't think my feet were going to start moving again.  I will try to keep you up to date on my costume progress.  I'm hoping to have several costumes for the next one. Because if you aren't going to go all out, don't do it at all.

I Am The Doctor <3 David Tennant

Creepin' by Eric Church
Because this song is the shit that's why! And I think Eric Church as a bit of a Doctor look about him....yummy. I think this song feels a little bit cajun to me for some reason.  If it's the banjo, I don't know but I love it.

Finn Jones couldn't be more gorgeous. Drool.  You may recognize him as Loras Tyrell off Game of Thrones.  He is also called the Knight of Flowers.

Exhausted,
Mav


45 days!

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Social-Political Rant

I just have to say that I don't understand this whole thing with us going into Syria.  I understand that the chemical warfare on the people there is brutal and horrific.  I understand that we (as humans, not Americans) should not let that slide.  I don't understand how America thinks it can get involved in something that has been going on for two years already and not get completely sucked into this civil war.  And what's worse is I think that we are getting somewhat pushed into it.  America has stuck it's nose in the asshole of every problem that we could up until now and when we don't want to get involved we get blamed.  Now we get looked at to get involved in everything, and I know that expectation is partly our fault.  There are plenty of other countries that could do something.  What would make the message clear is if everyone (from all over the world) could get past their religious and social ideals and look at these people laying in these hospitals and know that this is wrong.  We should fight for humanity as a whole.  Assad and his minions doing this to these citizens should be seen as traitors to the world, to humanity.  Not just in Syria.  Anyone and everyone has the ability to get involved.  We are all people.  We are all responsible for what happens in our world.  If you are sitting in Germany or New Zealand or Russia or South Africa or Singapore or Scotland or Argentina or Mexico or Canada or Nigeria or Brazil or anywhere on planet Earth and you think that this doesn't concern you then you need to wake up and smell the tear gas, because what happens in our world, no matter where it is, happens to you too.

Mav



We are 100%.

now i've thought it through

Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High? by Arctic Monkeys

And this happened.  Alex Turner you tease. (Pre-quiff mind you.)

Here is a live performance of Love Is A Laserquest by Alex Turner (acoustic). It's so wonderful.  His voice slides over me like slowing dipping into a hot bath.  Mmm I am going to take a bath tonight.

Mav


51 days

Thursday, August 22, 2013

it's what people call the morning....

Wake Me Up by Avicii
This song is so damn upbeat! It just makes me wanna groove around. I think the people in the town though get taken all wrong.  What if they saw that they were different and were really just trying to find an escape from their own hell. Especially the girl at the end.  She looks so sad. Could they not ride the horse back out again?

Mav


57 days

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Camel back Day

Sex On Fire by Kings of Leon
This song is awesome.  I love music.  It's so perfect. I want to press my skin against Caleb Followill.  Maybe that is creepy, but I don't need your approval.  Besides, you're thinking it.

And there is Jared Followill. Can I get under the covers with you?

So if my friend comes into town this weekend I will probably go get a tattoo.  I know what you're thinking, "But Mav, you just got a tattoo."  I know that.  I want another one.  It's hard to not get them when you know what you want and you have the money.  I would tell you what it is, but copycats and such.  I'll show you after I get it.  If I don't get it this weekend then it will probably be September before I get it.

Yep,
Mav

58 days

I can taste it.

Weed can get you through times with no money, but money can't get you through times with no weed.

Fact.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

I'm thinking I'm addicted to Tattoos

We all knew that a post every day in my horribly sober state of mind was way too good a deal to last.  I've done well, not my best, but pretty decently.  Not much longer now kiddies.  I'm not going to promise that I will post more often but I can say that my posts will be much more enjoyable and interesting and probably funny (because I'm hilarious, you know). Anyway,  I'm almost done with work and I plan to go home and play some Mass Effect 2 while I let my kindle charge.

Let Her Go by Passenger
This song makes me so happy.  It's just so great.  I love the lead singer (calls himself Passenger) and his voice.  It's so wonderfully unique and beautiful.  So check them out.

Oh, and I wrote a thing and stuff....

Wrong Side Out

I read your words like breath they suffocate me
twirling around in my lungs needing a moment to escape my lips
I can't let them go with the way your eyes sang to me
fingertips making sense of my body's braille
laughter in droves
sighs in infinity
waving wisps of hair curling around your nose
my heart pounds with pain in my chest and I won't let it out
I can't let you out with endless pools of surf green
tangled legs wrapped in sheets of organic cotton
crackling fires and a rough corduroy couch
I am filled with your essence
separated only by the tissues of my organs pleading for release
depleting my energy holding on
I break and my body rejoices in sobs with your absence
pillows that smell like faint detergent
burgers tasting of unseasoned meat
dark strand of hair on my sink swept into the trash
a flushed out vessel waiting to inhale with pink cheeks


Hopefully,
Mav


59 days

Monday, August 19, 2013

2 months minus 1 day

Do or Die by Thirty Seconds to Mars
Love this song and this video.  I'm feeling very spiritually empowered lately.  It's amazing how a good conversation can just snap you back to yourself.  I don't have a lot to say yet though.  But I'm feeling more like myself.

Majestically,
Mav

"You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop."


60 days

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

It's a rainy day

I met a gorgeous man with a rugged beard, long blonde hair and nipple rings.  Then I woke up.

Exit Humanity
Great movie of the week.  If you like zombies then you'll like this movie.  It's got great filming and animation and makeup.  It's pretty great.  It's on Netflix. Watch!

Ride on Right on by Phosphorescent
vid is a bit crap, but the song is just great

Do I Wanna Know? by Arctic Monkeys
here is another because music

sluggishly,
Mav

PS: Check out my buddy's page, A Vast Frontier.


65 days

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

time ticks on

Everyone just needs to chill the hell out.  Put this on and just veg and groove the whole time.  Light up whatever you want to as well.  The world needs peace.  Find each other through music.

Killing Me Deep Inside by Slightly Stoopid

Prophet by Slightly Stoopid


66 days

Thursday, August 8, 2013

last day of work this week

Not a lot to say.  My friend is coming into town tonight.  More on Sunday.

Ready, Able by Grizzly Bear
This is a band I have just recently been made aware of.  I think they have some real talent and this video is trippy as fuck.  Really great though.  They remind me of a Shins/Doors/awesomeness mashup type dealy.  Well Just check them out.

Peace,
Mav

72 days

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

It's wednesday, ya know?

New Slang by The Shins
I know it's not a music video, but I don't know if they have any.  Not that I've seen.  This song is great though, and you may remember it from the movie Garden State, which was a movie of the week at one point.

My friend is visiting this weekend and we are going to go get some stuff pierced.  Remember my industrial closed up while I was in jail? Well, I'm going to be getting it re-pierced this weekend! Don't worry, I'll post pictures.

This whole thing about introverts and extroverts is getting silly.  I am an introvert.  I like to sit at home and play video games and smoke weed and not talk to people very often.  It doesn't mean I never want to hang out with anyone.  I like to go out and see my friends and when they come to see me.  But you probably wont see me at very many raging shindigs or huge HUGE parties or anything.  Being an introvert also doesn't mean I never want to talk to you.  I have things I want to say (or I wouldn't have this blog).  I just don't feel the need to endlessly talk about my life to everyone.  I don't even do that with my best friend.  I tell you once and that's it.  I like to listen.  I will listen and process and think and if I have something to say then I'll say it.  But don't except some ridiculously long, drawn out, explanatory speech about why I think that.  Maybe I want you to think about why I said that.  Maybe you should be the one asking questions about life. You have to come up with your own conclusions.  Don't always look for validation in another.  There is also this stupid idea that if you are creative you must only be an introvert. Not true! I know plenty of extroverts that are creative as all get out! The same goes for intelligence.  Extroverts are just as smart as introverts.  There is also this notion out there that introverts only care about what's going on inside themselves and don't care about anything outside themselves.  Lies.  I think the most important way to learn about yourself is by learning about the world.  Also, how can we ever expect to fully accept and love and have a decent place to live if we don't ever go outside of our own little mind box.  I'll admit I spend more time daydreaming than I probably should, but it doesn't mean that I am disconnected from the world and don't care about it.

Blah,
Mav


73 days

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

take it back now, y'all!

I'm gonna throw back today.
Say My Name by Destiny's Child
When they had way more than the final three of Destiny's Child.  And the only one who got super famous is Beyonce (but I love Kelly's face when they do the thing at the end in the pleather) .  The style in this video makes me laugh.  It is so 2000 with the pants and that hair and the weird flowers on the jeans.  This is still one of this groups most memorable songs.  It really put them on the music scene and from there they only grew in popularity.  It's pretty cool to look back at this video and remember when it came out.  It's also sad that there are kids today that have no idea what this song is, much less this group.  They know Beyonce (but who doesn't? It's Beyonce!)and they will never know this songs glory unless they take the time to find it or someone takes the time to show them.

The way the furniture moves in this video reminds me of Virtual Insanity by Jamiroquai. I'd bet money that Destiny's Child took the inspiration or that whoever directed their video had the inspiration.  This song is also pretty famous.  It's not many people that don't know it.  Somehow it's become a classic of sorts. I used to have shoes like his, except they were orange and red! Ah the 90's.  It's always fun to look back and ask yourself, "What was I thinking?" And it's nice to realize that no matter what you are doing you will still look back and think that (at least when it comes to fashion).  I have a friend in Memphis and I love him and he has the most rockin hair I've ever seen and only he would have the guts and the chic to pull it off.  In 10 years, however, he will look back at some old photo album and say, "Oh my god! Look at my hair!" and he'll laugh and sigh.  The funniest part will be the fact that he actually will have only upgraded his hairstyle and only because fashion is different now does the past look non-fashionable.  (well in some cases, people really don't have any fashion sense.) But that's what makes life interesting right?  Leave the same hair style for 40 years in the babies of the 30's.  This is the 21st century and we like to be bold and stand out and change ourselves and our surroundings and our ideas.  We like to try new things and take chances and make risky decisions.  It's all about the ride, and mine will be an exciting roller coaster.  What will yours be?

Watching these videos make me miss Pop Up Video.  I hear that they have started Pop Up Video again, but I never watch MTv or VH1 because they never play music anymore.  I know that is something that we all miss about MTv, is when it actually played music videos.  To soothe all your sad, sad, Pop Up Video missing souls I'm going to include this little number. Another awesome 90's song, Fly by Sugar Ray. Even this video has a kind of weird room sequence with Mark McGrath jumping all over the walls and ceiling and doing a bit of break dancing. Don't try to say you didn't enjoy the video.

Happily,
Mav


74 days

Monday, August 5, 2013

i know

I'm awful.  But my mom was in town this weekend.

Just a word to the non wise (because the wise wouldn't have this problem, though perhaps only the wise would listen) watch what you say to people.  You may think that you know a person because of your own personal experience with other people, but you don't.  You can only judge people against themselves.  If you have two daughters and they are weak and not athletic and don't really help around the house, don't assume that that is how I will be as well.  Don't belittle my strength and intelligence because you know other girls who are that way.  This goes for everything.  Be kind to your family. Treat them with love.  When they do something for you, be grateful.  Even if it takes longer than you thought it would, you still aren't having to do it.  That's not to say if they do a really terrible job or something you just don't ask them to do it again, but just be nice about it.  Whether it's just how you wanted it or not (unless its obvious that they half-assed just to be a douche) just remember that they took time out of their day that they could have been doing something for themself.

I hate the confusion surround the word themself, themselves.  It keeps telling me that themself isn't a word, but what the hell am I supposed to put instead? Them?  "They could have been doing something for them."  I think that is right, but it feels incomplete somehow.

Juicebox by The Strokes
Hello Tobias Funke, analrapist!
This song rocks pretty hard.  Looks like Julian Casablancas isn't as hopped up on drugs anymore.  He used to look so fucked up in every video.  The first one where I noticed he didn't and actually had clear eyes was in Reptilia.  Which is still one of my favorite songs of theirs, and I thought it had already been a song of the day. He is so much cuter when he looks like this and you can see his eyes.  Also, Nick Valensi is hoooooot. Yummy!

Sue me. So you haven't gotten a song every mother fucking day. I try. If you have song of the day ideas, I'm totally willing to consider them! I love hearing new music!

End Love by OK Go
But here is another. I absolutely love OK Go, and I love this video. The goose makes me laugh every time.

That's it.  Tell your friends.

Of course,
Mav

PS: Check out this fan made video that won the OK Go video competition and became OK Go's accepted official vid.  It's really good! I'm Not Through by OK Go


75 days

Friday, August 2, 2013

reverse, reverse

this song goes out to the one guy who just keeps me reeled in.  And while I want to live by these lyrics and stand strong, I can't help but know that I've done the exact same thing to him.  Give and take.  Push and pull.  Intrigue, passion, intensity, craving.  I also know that there isn't anyone else you see.  It's hard to say how we really feel isn't it?

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson


Deliberately,
Mav

78 days

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Maverick Say

Sometimes people are so out of touch.  I don't mean in the mentally ill sort of way or in the old demented sort of way. I mean in the never living in the moment way.  People get so caught up in what happened in the past and where they are going in the future that they can miss what's right in front of their faces.  Surely this is the only moment we have.  The future never gets here, it always becomes the present.  So if you are always thinking about the future then you will always be living ten steps ahead of yourself and maybe missing a lot of things you should be seeing.  Yes, planning is great, but when all you do is plan then you don't gain anything but future regrets that you missed out.  This is life.  Right now.  This very second.  Not 5 years away.  That hasn't happened yet! And not 2 years ago, you can't ever change that again so remember it fondly but don't dwell on it. I think this type of "in the moment" thinking comes from confidence in yourself.  You have to be happy with yourself.  Think about it.  People who want to change are constantly thinking about what it will be like when they have changed, instead of just being who they are and loving themselves (I know that we all go through phases of future thinking--I'm saying it may not necessarily be a good thing when it is overdone). The biggest life lesson that (hopefully) everyone learns is that you can only find happiness within yourself.  You can't look for it in any other place.  Not in your mom or dad or girlfriend or boyfriend or best friend or brother or sister or anyone. Not even if they make you so happy that you can barely breathe around them.  It's a good start, but those feelings fade and if you aren't satisfied with yourself then you wont be satisfied with them.  (I'm gonna tangent) I've noticed that a lot of folks (men and women) get caught up in the act of finding that special someone.  Often times these people aren't very happy, they don't know what they want or who they are and they keep wondering why they can't find anyone.  No one is ever good enough.  But when you start to love yourself then you will be fulfilled much easier.  You start to look at a relationship as a partnership, a coming together, and working together.  It's no longer trying to find someone who "completes" you, because you are already complete. It's not some fairy-tale that you think you will never have to work.  A good relationship compromises. It's deciding to share life with someone who is your best friend, understands you, knows what being in a relationship means and loves themselves.  Only if they love themselves can they ever love you.  So don't go trying to "fix" people.  There is a reason those relationships never work.  The same goes for you.  I know that you are empty and alone and sad and just want to be loved, but trust me (I've been there) if you can't love yourself then you will have a hard time finding real happiness.

Something Good Can Work by Two Door Cinema Club


Unequivocally,
Mav

PS: I changed up the Songs of the Day page so that the most recent song is now on the top.


"Forever is composed of nows."

79 days

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

rain is falling like rhinestones from the sky

Through the Fire and Flames by Dragonforce

There aren't words to describes the raging awesomeness that is this song.  Bonus backward filming too! And sooooo much hair.

Morning,
Mav

80 days

Monday, July 29, 2013

Now is the time....

I know, I know...I'm awful.  I skipped the weekend countdown.  Honestly I thought about it both days, but just didn't get up the give-a-shit to do it.  So I'll make it up to you today by catching up with those songs.

We are gonna work our way up in awesome rockness.

Bye Bye Blackbird by Joe Cocker
But we're gonna start off slow with a good bluesy tune.  This song reminds me of what childhood should be, or was.  Like when my dad was a kid in the 50's.  When a good Sunday was sitting in the backyard chasing bubbles.  After school you didn't watch tv, because there were only three stations and your parents watched them.  Kids actually played with each other and got out of the house and did stuff.  We are so lazy these days.  Even in the 80's and 90's teens would go hang out at the mall, but with online shopping that's way cheaper there is no point in going to the mall, unless it's an emergency or an absolute necessity that you can only find at the mall (which is ridiculous, you can get anything online). I feel like in a way the generations now are completely fucked.  By the time I want to retire there will be no social security and I highly doubt I'll have a pension. It sounds like a really bad thing.  People will have to work until they are practically dead.  At the same time, the people who got this country started didn't have pensions and social security.  It wasn't even a thing then! They were self-starters, motivated, financially savvy.  Future generations will have to channel these kinds of people and become them.  No one is going to help them survive. I'm not one to predict what will happen with any type of accuracy, but it seems pretty legitimate that the baby boomers are going to clean out social security. Thanks. At the same time, the government hasn't really protected it the way they should have.  Dipping into it for this, that and the other.  Shame on you! Why the hell am I paying into something I'll never even get to have!

Don't Speak by No Doubt
Not a lot to say, but glad the 90's fashion is over.  It really rears its ugly head in this video.

No One Knows by Queens Of The Stone Age
Gotta love Dave Grohl! This song just has a straight up funky beat that makes you want to jam.

Coming Down by Five Finger Death Punch
Here is an extra as an apology for missing the weekend.  I know that it just screwed all of you up on the inside something fierce. This song is hardcore along with it's video.  I'd say it even has some controversial imagery.  But that's what music is all about.   I love the animated portion! It's so bitchin! Never underestimate the power that one person has to change everything by just not walking away from a strange circumstance.  Remember, no one (who is a gamer) in their right mind would give away their gaming system unless it was completely busted (even then).
Check out other Five Finger Death Punch, they have a good sound.

Good news! My art professor from college finally responded and she still has my art portfolio! I've been thinking about taking some art classes at Univ of Co Denver and this will help me.

Not much longer and I'll be back to my normal, rambling, deep thinking self.  It's almost August after all.

Stagnantly,
Mav

82 days

Thursday, July 25, 2013

thirsty thursdays

Club Love by The Cataracs
This song makes me want to dance.  I enjoy the video too.  I like to daydream about being a wildling sometimes and being war painted up. And I felt they did the club scene very tastefully.  It was cool, but not overdone.

Here's another Cataracs song just for fun featuring Dev.  I love music videos like this one.  They make me smile, because it shows just how normal everyone is. Also,  Niles "Cyrano" Hollowell-Dhar is hot.
Sunrise by the Cataracs featuring Dev

Here's an update.  I hate work, but I've never been contacted by the zoo and I don't think I will.  So I just relooked at this place in Colorado called Crow Canyon where I can do another dig.  I do love archaeology.  It's just a two month program and it's paid so I really don't think I can go wrong going for it.  And the more experience I have the more distant digs I could do.  I could just join on with a company and become an archaeologist by default.  But that is something I don't want to jinx, so I don't expect anything. But I will probably do this Crow Canyon thing the first year I am in Colorado, because I don't want to get too settled into a job or anything before I do.

Contemplatively,
Mav

85 days

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

86 the cannoli

Hello, fellow individuals!

Ain't No Sunshine by Bill Withers
This song is one of my absolute favorite songs.  It's so haunting.  I love the strings.  This is the original version with some pictures of Bill.  I'm also going to put the live version on here.  It's still really good quality, and it gives you an idea of what he looks like when he sings.  Also, the drummer's smiling face is kind of hilarious.
Ain't No Sunshine Live

My movie of the week is Soul Kitchen.
This trailer is a bit deceiving.  It makes it look like a comedy, but it's really not what I would categorize as a comedy.  It has some very funny moments, but overall its more of a shits hitting the fan and crazy shenanigans movie.  If that even makes sense.  It is a German movie, and it is completely subtitled.  But I love Adam Bousdoukos.  The movie is extremely satisfying and you will cringe and be angry and elated with the characters.  Check it out.  It's on Netflix.

Got another song for you.
Don't Go by Fefe Dobson
Some of you may remember her, or still love her. She's all punk now, and doing soundtracks for tv and movies.  She's really fun and this song makes me laugh.  Me and my brother used to listen to it and be silly and dance and just laugh and laugh.  And! Check out her boyfriend in this vid is Drake Bell.  The only time he was every truly attractive (when he didn't say anything).  Whatever happened to him?

Genuinely,
Mav


86 days


Tuesday, July 23, 2013

four score and seven days to go

Cinder and Smoke by Iron & Wine
I love Iron & Wine.  They have such a smoky sound that just wisps through your mind filling up all its recesses with emotion.  This song is no exception.  I've uploaded one of their songs before (Upwards Over the Mountain) and I heard this one the other day as I was exploring them and just fell in love.

Whimsically,
Mav

"Be humble for you are made of earth, be noble for you are made of stars."


87 days

Monday, July 22, 2013

Infinity times Infinity

Walk Idiot Walk by The Hives
How much you wanna bet they got the idea of this video while playing scrabble? I really love this song.  It's really jammin, and it's kind of a classic to me.  Not just the suits, but a music video where they are actually playing the song, held inside of one room where some weird stuff happens.  This song would be pop up video material easily! For all his strangeness (like looking like my friends idiot roommate) Pelle Almqvist has a great voice (and his life clearly has more direction than said roommate's).  It's clear and strong and noteable.  So check out the vid and try not to have just another monday monday.

Unwaiveringly,
Mav

PS: If you want a good youtube playlist for work maybe or cleaning the house check this out!


88 days

Sunday, July 21, 2013

raindrops on puddles

Glory Box by Portishead
This video is strange and its dirty and grungy.  The song is great, I almost recommend listening to it before watching the video because it's really great to jam to.  It's got that slow, grinding rhythm.

Lazily,
Mav


89 days

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Saturday Night Fever

Jolene by Dolly Parton
This music video comes to you with all the greatness of the 70's.  Dolly Parton is a legend, and this is one of my favorite songs by here.  I try to give live vids as much as I can as long as the quality is good and this vid fits the bill.  Gotta love that lavender jumpsuit with the glitter belt.  Such big tits. I love her voice in this song, it's haunting.

I also have a movie of the week for you.  Silent House is a really great movie.  It's shot in real time, one take.  Elizabeth Olsen does a phenomenal job.  Usually you watch a scary movie and the lead character is whimpering and making all kinds of noise, but Elizabeth Olsen is so obviously wanting scream and stays dead silent.  Definitely check this movie out.

Mav

90 days

Friday, July 19, 2013

Happy friday!

War Pigs by Black Sabbath
Just thought I'd get a little change rage going in your blood.  This song is one of my favorites by Black Sabbath.  My friend in the marines in Cal (shout out!) says they run in cadence to this song.  There were videos of them playing live, but I felt this one fit the bill.

Defiantly,
Mav

PS: I've added a page that contains all my pictures that I have put up and I will continue to add to it as time goes on.


91 days


Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Grasshoppers take the subway just like rats

Wicked Game by Chris Isaak
I absolutely love this song.  This is the first time I've watched the video, and I wish there was less woman in it.  Chris Isaak is so scrumptious.  I wanted to see him rolling around on the bed, smoking a cigarette or something. Maybe that's just what I felt the song denoted.  But listen and fall in love with his melodious voice.

I've been struggling since I started this countdown to not give more than one song of the day, knowing that I could just use it the very next day, BUT I just cannot hold back any longer.  The amount of music out there is staggering, and I am sure that giving an extra song of the day every now and then won't hurt anything.  Besides I have a great one.

Love That Burns by Fleetwood Mac
Really chill to this song.  Just lean back, close your eyes and drink in the music.  Feel your body slowly groove to its bluesy beat. Light up a bowl if you can. Or a cigarette.  Or just jam. Damn, make love to it! I just had to give it to y'all so that you may know the greatness that is Fleetwood Mac. I know it isn't an actual video.  There was a vid that had a pretty decent slideshow of Fleetwood Mac, but the quality was real shit.  Of course I will go for quality and if you feel so inclined you can search the song yourself on youtube.

The other day my friend asked me what I recommend we do about the staggering negative effects we (humans) have on our home (earth), and it made me think.  I have mixed feeling about it.  Part of me wants to change things and hope people will be more respectful of the planet and want to take care of it.  Either way we don't have to fuck it up as much as we do.  People are so prone to take things for granted.  We have so much technology, but we don't really utilize it in ways that are the most beneficial.  I mean, look at Telsa.  The man had inventions for free energy for everyone and it was destroyed because people were greedy.  At the same time I feel there is an inevitability to the situation.  Was not all change at some point feared?  Nothing lasts forever.  The biggest thing is to remember.  In the end of it all there's nothing left but the experiences.  The people you loved, the knowledge you gained and passed on.  I feel you can really only change yourself to be a better person and take the world as it comes.  Enjoy it all.  Every good and bad experience teaches you, helps you understand yourself and gives you the ability to teach others so that they may understand themselves.  Think on it.

Elucidatingly,
Mav


93 days to go

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

IIIIII

Somedays by Paul McCartney
This song is just wonderful.  Love Paul McCartney. There is no official video, but I checked out a few different fanmade ones and this one is the best.  It has a bunch of nice pictures of Paul.  Really listen to the song though, it's almost haunting.   But I suppose that's the talent you find within Paul McCartney.

Nostalgically,
Mav

"In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make."

94 days to go

Monday, July 15, 2013

Another week's beginning, another week's ending

How Will I Know by Whitney Houston
We all remember this Whitney.  We all miss this Whitney.  I remember I was watching MtvU with my boyfriend at the time about 2 1/2 years ago (shout out! It's ok, we're friend now) and this song came on and I was jammin' out.  He looks at me and asks, "Who is this?" and I was like, "Are you kidding? It's Whitney Houston!" and he says, "OMG! What happened?" Haha we all know what happened....

Mav

"Sincerity is the eventual deception of all great men."


PS: Song page updated.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

One more down

just made it right under the wire

Expectations by Belle & Sebastian
It's not an actual video, but I think it fits the song pretty well.

Bedtime now,
Mav

Saturday, July 13, 2013

90 + 7

Into Your Arms by The Maine
The guys in this are that whole original hipster with their v-necks and hair and blazers and stuff. Patrick Kirch (drummer) is pretty cute though. John O'Callaghan's mouth gets so weird when he said "arms" in the chorus.  It's like he is trying to open and close it at the same time (it looks normal in the very end though). Overall, I really like this song.  It's happy and upbeat.

Also, I got a new kitty today!  His name is Endor. He's such a cuddle bug.



Mav

Friday, July 12, 2013

100 days of posts countdown: day 98

People get their panties in a wad over the tiniest thing.  I'm cruising on facebook (go figure) and I see that one of the pages I follow has changed it's main topper photo thingy.  Not their profile picture but the banner at the top.  It's hard for me not to say Jolly Roger because my facebook is in pirate English.  Anywho, the picture is of an incredibly rotund hedgehog and people are spouting off how the owner should be charged with animal cruelty and taken to jail.  I'll agree the hog is fat, but usually (I realize this is not always true and that some people are actually cruel, but it's a minority) overweight animals as pets comes from not being properly educated about how to take care of the pet.  Almost never does it have to be something as drastic as jail time because their puppy got pudgy.  I'm not saying that if you see a super fat animals you shouldn't say something, but lets use those brains people. I would suspect that the overweight problem happens before the owner truly realizes it (because they love their little snookums poo and like giving them treats when they do tricks or to hear them squeak when sitting on their lap, we've all done it) and then it's a tough thing to tackle, just like in humans.  And if they have kids that always give the pet treats when mom & dad aren't looking...I guess what I am trying to say is that people jump to conclusions all too quickly about what needs to be done and who is in the wrong without truly thinking about what might be the circumstances behind it.  The overweight pet is an example. In this day and age we are so prone to blame and so forgetful to understand.

Kiss of Life by Friendly Fires

Candidly,
Mav


"Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world.  Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."