Rant

I hate this class.  It's so fucking stupid.  I'm pretty much trapped doing something with it.  I can't drop out because it's too late.  I've already paid for it.  I hate this.  I hate school.  I hate insolent teachers and classes that aren't at the level they should be.  I hate working and typing data and being forced into deadlines that aren't realistic.  I hate having everyone act like I'm a big deal and do anything beneficial when I could walk out the door and they probably wouldn't even notice but be annoyed at having to do the tedious bullshit they call work they had me doing.  I hate court and Shelby County and the fact that weed is still illegal.  I hate the fact that I can't smoke when I'm a good person who pays my damn taxes and went to college and has a steady job that I hate.  It's the fucking American dream, right?! I hate the fact that because I didn't want to narc on some dealer that I have to pay thousands to keep the biggest load of bullshit since slavery off my record.  That's how I feel.  I feel useless and trapped and empty and insignificant.  I feel like I have no control and the powers that be are sucking out my life force without a single care.  That the only place where it's bitter sweetly happy is in my head where none of it is real anyway.

Mav