Sitting in my window with a bowl and a glass of red wine. I feel especially relaxed today. It is my birthday. I am 24 today. Some realities of moving to Colorado are getting increasingly scary the closer they get. It will for sure be an adventure. No, I don't really feel all that different from my 23 year old self, but every year our birthday reminds us of the time we have left and how we have spent our time before. I think it's going to be a good year for me.
I think I am more pensive than I was when I was just turning 23. Perhaps I am feeling still a bit detached from the world. I worry that I will end up being a hermit when I move. That my natural lone tendencies will leave me friendless in my new city. And part of me is okay with that. I kind of just want to be anonymous. I don't feel like I'll be able to keep that up for long though. It's the way of our kind to seek out friendships and companions. COMPANIONS!!! oooo WEEEEE ooooo dooo deee doooooo
I'm just really excited to have my own place and be able to do anything I fucking want. Just me. I think I'm going to love it. Decorate any way I want and burn all the incense I want and be as messy as I want. It's just time for this part of my life. I'm ready for it. I think big things are headed my way. I just feel really good about it.
Mav
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Sunday, October 27, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
We're driving Cadillacs in our dreams
Royals by Lorde
This song is just super great. I've been jammin out to it a lot these days.
So I'm free. Feels like it's been forever and at the same time not at all. It was interesting sitting in that church (because you graduate in the church across the street) surrounded by all the other graduates. I knew one person and he didn't even sit next to me because we were placed alphabetically. Everyone right around you becomes your instant best friend. You joke together, roll your eyes together, get pissed off at the same stuff. It's just interesting how we connect with each other as humans. We so easily accept people by common experience. It makes me wonder about prejudice now...how even it can exist now. You'd think that being so smart we would've learned a long time ago that peace works so much better for the good of everyone, right? I mean, it's elementary. Such a simple idea when thought of grandly can be unstoppable. I mean how easy would it be if you looked at the options as more black and white like I can either a) get over my differences with this person and live together in a mutually beneficial way or b) decide that the differences between us are only going to be overcome by hatred and warfare in which not only I will probably die but hundreds and thousands of people who wanted nothing to do with the argument in the first place with also die. To me the option is pretty obvious.
I'm thinking of redying my hair purple. Not like a cheesy bright purple but like a deep rich pretty purple. And before I just had the underside of my hair dyed, but this time I'm gonna do my whole head. It's gonna be so great!! If you follow me on instagram (@TympanicPulse) then you will be keeping up with when my hair actually changes and what it looks like.
Also, I'm going to learn to skateboard. I'm saving up now for the board. My life feels endless. I suppose it's the age I'm at. It just feels like my life is so extensive. I will be so many people before it's all over.
On the fucking moon,
Mav
This song is just super great. I've been jammin out to it a lot these days.
So I'm free. Feels like it's been forever and at the same time not at all. It was interesting sitting in that church (because you graduate in the church across the street) surrounded by all the other graduates. I knew one person and he didn't even sit next to me because we were placed alphabetically. Everyone right around you becomes your instant best friend. You joke together, roll your eyes together, get pissed off at the same stuff. It's just interesting how we connect with each other as humans. We so easily accept people by common experience. It makes me wonder about prejudice now...how even it can exist now. You'd think that being so smart we would've learned a long time ago that peace works so much better for the good of everyone, right? I mean, it's elementary. Such a simple idea when thought of grandly can be unstoppable. I mean how easy would it be if you looked at the options as more black and white like I can either a) get over my differences with this person and live together in a mutually beneficial way or b) decide that the differences between us are only going to be overcome by hatred and warfare in which not only I will probably die but hundreds and thousands of people who wanted nothing to do with the argument in the first place with also die. To me the option is pretty obvious.
I'm thinking of redying my hair purple. Not like a cheesy bright purple but like a deep rich pretty purple. And before I just had the underside of my hair dyed, but this time I'm gonna do my whole head. It's gonna be so great!! If you follow me on instagram (@TympanicPulse) then you will be keeping up with when my hair actually changes and what it looks like.
Also, I'm going to learn to skateboard. I'm saving up now for the board. My life feels endless. I suppose it's the age I'm at. It just feels like my life is so extensive. I will be so many people before it's all over.
On the fucking moon,
Mav
Friday, October 11, 2013
*whispers* seven days
So yea...I'm off in one week. I can hardly wait! Feels good. Been on a cloud all day.
Movie of the week has got to be The Ring.
I saw the Ring 2 when it came to theatres, but I just watched The Ring today for the first time and it was phenomenal. I'm not surprised it's so highly acclaimed. I had chills the whole movie. The suspense is perfect, the mystery, the moments of terror. Real terror is in the questions. Movies where you know exactly what is happening aren't as scary. They are kind of predictable. I even watched it in broad daylight and I was still practically falling out of my seat. So watch it.
Is it like against my whole thing to not have a song of the day? Oh well, don't have one. Get counseling if you need to. I know it's hard to accept change.
totes,
Mav
"There is no path to happiness: happiness is the path."
7 days
Movie of the week has got to be The Ring.
I saw the Ring 2 when it came to theatres, but I just watched The Ring today for the first time and it was phenomenal. I'm not surprised it's so highly acclaimed. I had chills the whole movie. The suspense is perfect, the mystery, the moments of terror. Real terror is in the questions. Movies where you know exactly what is happening aren't as scary. They are kind of predictable. I even watched it in broad daylight and I was still practically falling out of my seat. So watch it.
Is it like against my whole thing to not have a song of the day? Oh well, don't have one. Get counseling if you need to. I know it's hard to accept change.
totes,
Mav
"There is no path to happiness: happiness is the path."
7 days
Friday, October 4, 2013
Two weeks
Not a lot to say. Seriously, I'm just counting down. My mom is coming home today. We are going to the fair tomorrow with the family and celebrating my birthday on Tuesday. My brother says he got me something he can't give me in front of mom, which excites me because it means I'll probably love it haha. Also, I've started putting stuff I've made on Etsy. My shop name is Threshold Art. I only have one thing on there now, but it will grow soon. Living the dream. I also got responded to about an inquiry on a place to live in Colorado! That makes me really excited.
What Would You Do? by City High
This song is a blast from the past. I remember it being big when I was in middle school. Whaaa? I'm old.
Anyway, One Way Or Another by One Direction.
This song is a good cause and there is a lot of crap surrounding them. Honestly, I enjoy them. I'm not throw my panties around in love with them, but I like them. I think it would be interesting to talk to them and see where they wanted to go. I would like to see them start expanding and creating original music. I don't know them, but I bet at least couple of them could do it, but they have all helped write some of the songs already. Grow little caterpillars! Sprout wings and come forth a butterfly!
Shit's getting weird now.
Anxiously,
Mav
14 days
What Would You Do? by City High
This song is a blast from the past. I remember it being big when I was in middle school. Whaaa? I'm old.
Anyway, One Way Or Another by One Direction.
This song is a good cause and there is a lot of crap surrounding them. Honestly, I enjoy them. I'm not throw my panties around in love with them, but I like them. I think it would be interesting to talk to them and see where they wanted to go. I would like to see them start expanding and creating original music. I don't know them, but I bet at least couple of them could do it, but they have all helped write some of the songs already. Grow little caterpillars! Sprout wings and come forth a butterfly!
Shit's getting weird now.
Anxiously,
Mav
14 days
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