Stoner Thoughts on Life's little Eccentricities Part 2

It's been really rainy out and I'm loving it.  It's so quiet and peaceful. You can hear the geese honking.  I'm sitting on my back porch smoking a ciggy.  I would love to live in the city.
So Alive.

Good Flick.

I think that 71 degrees is the perfect temperature for my apartment.  I'm completely comfortable.

My boyfriend is doing really good tonight in call of duty.  I think it's just cooler to watch because I'm cookie crisp.

I wish I could explain what just occurred between myself and my roommate.  We were discussing the end of the world and when the next year would be 12/12/12.

I made some homemade cookie biscuits.  They are good.  I would serve them at breakfast.  Put syrup on them.  Or molasses?!!

The amazing world of Gumball.  Watch it.
How creepy would it be if the sun was a big smiling face just looking down at us.
Sometimes I daydream about living in the wilderness away from everyone and living off the land.  Walking through the trees and shit.  I think it'd be cool.  It would be great just to be away from people.  Get a couple dogs, have my Arda.  Eat fresh grown veggies and hunt.  Hell yea.

We're all just people.
Guys get man caves.  I want a woman cave.  But I think I'll call it something else.  Maybe it will be my den.  Personal den.  It's gonna have dark room and a couch and my chair.  And I think I need to have bookshelves of some sort.  I would put my tv in there with my Xbox too.  And I'll have a rug and a fishtank. It's where I'd do a lot of my crafty things.

Got a free razor in the mail.  Sweet!

Country Song - Seether
Think I got a good song for y'all.

Ripped,
Mav

Stoner Thoughs on Life's little Eccentricities

I am just so much better at thinking out loud in a way that seems partially interesting when I'm stoned.  People dis weed for some unknown reason. The one thing I dont like is that I get distracted.

I'm hungry.

Watch AFV is great. So funny.  I have this necklace that I really like and I am wearing it now and I feel fancy.  So I just wear it naked. Haha I originally wrote baked twice by accident but its true too hahahahaha. Fully reccoment watch the Hard Times of RJ Berger.  It's fucking hilarious.

So I don't know if you've ever watched team oomizoomi on NickJr but it's not bad.  But I always think its funny how they say something and then pause to wait for an answer lol like they are insane.

I like that little oomi car though.

I wish that I lived somewhere that we got a lot of snow so I could build a snowman and put funny things on it like an inner tube.
They have this thing called oomi goggles. And it's just you putting your hands up to your face and the little cartoons do it and I imagine them as really enthusiastic teen group leaders at a kids camp.

The show bubble guppies is weird.  I can't imagine living underwater.  Your stuff would always be weat and we would get cold.  But on the show they are going camping and have a sleeping bag so I guess it would keep you warmer but you'd still get really cold.  I like that little outside song though.
How did they get to outer space and are still underwater? is their whole universe inside the snow globe of some other dimension?
Since when are there bears on the dark side of the moon? Are they escaped NASA test subjects that somehow learned to thrive in the low gravity vacuum of the moon's surface.
Keep the balloon off the ground with a five year old while warm and toasty. Win.
I'm totally gonna build wicked forts with my kids.

I kind of look forward to getting where I need glasses because I think they will look really good on me.  All hipster and shit.
I love That 70's Show.  Hyde is dreamy.
I think I'll watch the Office next.
But Hyde can be a real twat because of how he gets Eric so good with burns.  I like those special times where Red is proud of something Eric did.
I look like such a stoner right now.

Sex and Candy by Marcy Playground

Shout out to my bestie: Build Me Up Buttercup: The Foundations

Happily,
Mav

Arda enjoying the cozy fire.

Some new art.

He's happy because he's insane!

So I haven't been updating much lately.  Getting ready for the holidays and trying to figure out how to tell the people I nanny for that I'm quitting the end of december so I can start my new office job that is full time with set hours and free weekends.  can't beat that.  no sirree.

I wonder if i just have less to say.  I put up my tree this week.  I love it. we just put lights on it.  it's cute and fun.  We want to slowly add ornaments over time.  so it'll be fun.  I got a bunch of stocking stuffers for them as well.  I would mention them on here but I don't want my boyfriend to read it and then his surprise be ruined.  he is so bad about trying to figure out every gift I get him.  that ruins the whole point of it being a surprise! lol

over the weekend i invited an old friend from high school over to catch up and bake and my roommate that isnt my boyfriend has this girl that he is trying to be with and she is like super self conscious about being around other people and everytime they come over here he kicks us out of our own apartment.  and this time i told him i was having a friend over on tuesday and thursday he is like what time are yall gonna be out of here because my girl is coming over.  I was like i hadn't planned to leave but.... and he just was like cool be out by 9 if you can.  dillhole.  its my apartment too.  i left this time but next time he does that i'm gonna be like no i already made these plans you can find somewhere else to go.

i'm looking forward to christmas break.  i'm also looking forward to having paid time off and vacation days and holidays off and stuff.  am i getting sucked into the daily grind?  I need to keep my mind free.

one of my best friends is coming to visit in the next couple weeks and i'm really excited because i haven't seen him in like a four months and we are going to make crafts and get toasty and have a fire.  its going to be fun and my boyfriend will be there and we are probably going to go bowling which I LOVE to do. haha.  I hate it when its really crowded though.  i just don't care for crowds.  but when its less crowded it can be a lot of fun.  I went with my family during thanksgiving and we had a lot of fun.

kyle wants me to get my own shoes.  I will eventually.  and my own ball.

i've been smoking less cigarettes.  I only smoked 2 today.  yay progress!! idk if i will totally give it up until i get pregnant. but i think i'm ok with 2 or 3 a day.  thats not that bad.

consistently,
Mav

Ecclesiastes 5:2

First things first....

My office job that I work at has recently asked me to go full time and I am totally going to go for it.  Don't get me wrong.  I love nannying and the kids but at the same time it just does not pay the bills. I'm also going to be starting school in the Spring and Southern Co (the people I work for) will pay partial tuition.  Probably has a limit of money (like up to $1000 or something) but since I'm only going to be taking one or two classes a term it may just pay for all of it.  Which is...
phe
nom
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nal.
But that wont start until January.

I went to the Eric Church concert the other day when it came into town.  Opened with Kip Moore and Justin Moore.  It was a good show.  I like Eric Church but a couple of the songs I was unaware of and one I really liked was Creepin'.  It has this amazing Louisiana bayou sound that just makes my heart crave. I went with my boyfriend who is a huge Eric Church fan and now I see why.  He put on a fantastic show.  Dude is a nutter.  Our friend got this great picture of him from in front with his leg all kicked and there is smoke its just a silhouette.  I got this good picture during that song mentioned above.

But the show was great I got a t-shirt for it since it was my first concert with my boyfriend and also they had cool t-shirts haha. 

Here is another photo from the opening act of Justin Moore where he got everyone to turn on their cell phone lights and he sang this sweet song but it was so pretty to see all those lights.  It was much cooler when I was there but here is an idea of it. 

So I watched this movie the other day that really stuck with me.  It's called Forget Me Not (and that's the trailor).  When I first started watching it I thought it was going to be some typical shitty slasher teen film but it actually ended up being really good and it was a mind twister.  I loved how the story changed after deaths and how you didn't really know what was going on until it all came together at the very end.  Even at the end you were still left wondering about some things.  Not in a unsatisfying way but in like a that's messed up and crazy and great kind of way.  I would definitely recommend everyone give it a looksie.  If you aren't a big scary movie person well get over it because this movie is more than just scary movie.  It's suspense and drama and the acting is good and its got a good twist.  I am making this movie of the now. Watch it!!

Here's a quote for you.

"Experience is the child of thought, and thought is the child of action." Benjamin Disraeli

Exhausted,

Mav

You get two today :) Enjoy.

Get Together - The Youngbloods

(I like the 60's montage in the background)

And two:

Sunny Afternoon - The Kinks

Last first Saturday of November in 2012 ever! (the only one)

Ever notice how almost all scary movies are 'happy family moves into a new house and then things start happening'.  I'm watching the Haunting in Salem and these people get a house for free.  I don't know if I'd want to buy a house for free because that is really too good to be true.  It would have to be free because there was something terribly wrong with it.
Damn shit just happening right when they get there.
THAT'S WHERE IT LIVES!

It would suck to wake up and think you are really awake but really its a dream.  That would suck.  Then when you actually did wake up you would always wonder if you were really awake. What if we are really all just asleep and the world really is some type of matrix.  Or maybe its a spiritual awakening type thing.  Like we are on one spiritual plane and spirits and other things are on different spiritual planes.  And one day we all  grow spiritually past the need for a body and just become a soul.

I just paid my first month's rent.  I have my most beautiful friend, Arda here and I had to pay the pet deposit and it was fucking $400! But i should get that back later.  I will be paying an extra $100 for the next few months.  but rent isnt too bad.  With the pet fee its $325 which really isn't that bad and when I'm done with the fee it will only be $225.

So this movie was kind of stupid and almost decent at the same.  Don't look at her!! Shes gonna be scary.....oh this is stupid....cheesy. well that was easy
aw now its sad again.  well that wasn't too shabby.  I gave it 3 out of 5 stars.  I love watching netflix.  its so great to have wifi and we able to watch whatever.  I like watching new and different things.

scary movie day with Corey.  This one is British.  That makes it better. This one is called Exorcismus. So this  is way more interesting.  Still has a couple cheesy parts but overall way better.  She's gonna start crawling on walls and shit. I;m getting wicked chills right now.
Here's the trailor: Exorcismus

Up next: The Caller.  About some girl who keeps getting calls from some random lady.  Looks pretty interesting. It's a fucking ghost time warp crazy shit.

Enraptured,
Mav

Got a good song of the day for you.
Goldfrapp - Slippage

I want chickens!

Life is crazy.  Are you ever sitting and thinking, "I can't believe I'm here now." Because you can't plan your life.  You can plan your things and activities but life is what happens around all that.  The relationships and memories created and developed.  And I wouldn't have ever thought I'd be doing what I'm doing.  But I'm glad.  I like who I am and where I'm going. So yesterday was my birthday.  I don't feel older but I guess I feel a bit different.  Wiser maybe.  It's crazy to think I'm wise.  Or that I used to be foolish and that I'm going to get ever more wise. 

I miss my dorm room.  It was very zen.  I don't miss being in Oxford really, but I am still creating that energy that that room had in it.  It's getting there.  One room at a time, slowly.

Today is a very chill day.  Literally, it is quite cold outside but its also chill here on the couch.  I've been drawing a lot lately. Here is a couple for a taste:

I'm watching American Dad but I have it turned down to about 7 and I have music playing (Iron & Wine) and the muttering I hear from the characters sounds like it is in Spanish or Japanese or something haha. 

There are friends we all have.  We were once the best of friends, but after spending time apart its just not quite the same.  I know that I have changed over the years.  I love who I am though and I don't want to be who I was.  I don't regret.  Regretting is pointless.  Everything is a journey and a lesson and happens for a reason.  Makes us who we are. It sucks though cause my old friend still thinks that we are best friends but really aren't and there is nothing to say.  It's awkward and I find yourself struggling just have anything to say or even caring what they are talking about.  I cherish the relationship we had but I am also aware that despite the old saying ("Love will come and go, but friends last forever") which is totally untrue.  Because love is what lasts.  Even when it ends it sticks with you, forever.  Friends come and go.  The unfortunate truth. Of course love will get mixed up in friendship.  Friends like a brother or sister and they can hurt to lose (DISCLAIMER: there are exceptions to every rule. Some friends do last forever.  I am in no way saying that it can't happen, its just more unlikely.  When you find that person though that you totally connect with it is more likely that you will stay close because you will grow to love them in some form)  but relationships can only grow closer or farther apart, and I think its fading.  

It just gets annoying when every time I invite them out there is some excuse as to why they cant go and they continuously say they can go then bail at the last second (which is more annoying than saying no in the first place) also when they don't even ever invite me to anything why do I even try?

So no more ranting. Here's some good words. 

"In a gentle way, you can shake the world." Mahatma Gandhi

Mav

Back to Black - Amy Winehouse

(Sorry about the bleeping words )

arg, we be pirates

Today I was nannying and I was playing a game with Clara pretending to be spies.  I was technically at "Spy Camp" to learn to be a spy and we were having story time and she was pulling these old books off the bookshelf.  I had never looked closely at the bookshelf.  Honestly, I hadn't spent hardly any time in that living room aside from when I came for the interview.  Even then I didn't really look around. I was minding my p's and q's.  Well Clara was pulling the books out and I was intrigued by them because she was pulling out these old photos and notes out of them.  I asked her if I could read them and they were notes from a girl talking about how much she liked this guy.  They didn't seem too old, maybe from the 40's/50's/60's ish (written on note cards) and I was excited at finding them.  In another book there was a note card with a note from a boy to a girl telling her how she would fall in love one day no matter how much she hated it (I think he loved her and she blew him off and that's why he was saying that).  At the end of that note it said, "There is an inscription and a passage marked for you," and I started to scour the book looking for it, but I couldn't find it and Clara and Quinn were all crazy so we put up the books and went into the kitchen.  So Clara wanted to play pirates and so we found this old box full of pictures from when her dad was a kid in the 70's.  One from when he was just a little baby.  It was cool to show Clara those because in one it was his 4th birthday which is just one year younger than Clara.  She then asked me to pick a game and I said lets find something in the house that we haven't ever found before and as Clara went around I went straight back to the books.  I looked through that same book again then started going through the other books.  There were only about five that were old.  I wanted to find that passage the boy (his name was David) wanted her to read.  I saw this book of Longfellow poems and I thought well maybe it was a poem (it made sense to me).  I started looking through it and came across this letter.  Not written on a notecard, written on old paper and all in cursive.  I opened it and looked at the date.  April 1st, 1896.  WHAT A FIND! I got so excited.  I read it out loud to Clara and Quinn (though I don't think they were really listening).  It has bad English and sounds almost as if it is written by a black gentleman.  I love it so much.  It's so beautiful and romantic.  This is how it read:

April 1th 1896

Miss Dausie Rogers,

Darling girl,
as I am due you a letter I will try to answer with great pleasure while you or not thinking about any body down here but if the people here is not thinking about you there is one that is. well how did you enjoyed the preeching I was surprised when I saw you coming I thought you was going to stay untill School was out I had given up all hope of ever seeing you down here any more- will you be glad when your School will be out shure nuff.  but from the way you talked Sunday I did not think you would or did you mean it when you said you was going back I took it for a joke but I doesnt no when you or joking it is all trice with me. but a boy that loves a girl like I do you cant help from beleiving what thay say but that is the way the girls want thim so that thay can have some fun. I hope you care more than that for me. but you never say any thing a bout your fellow that you get your letters from I thought you would say something a bout him Sunday but thay was not a word said a bout him but that a girl never says any thing about a boy when thay care any thing a bout him. when or you coming home again it will seem like a long time if it is not but two weeks the time seems as longer to me as it does to you. well I will close for this time answer soon.
I remain as ever your true friend
T. H. Kennemer

Isn't that just so damn wonderful? I am so happy with this find.  In the back of that book it had been written that Thomas H. Kennemer and Dausie Rogers were married on December 23, 1896.  They also had two kids, Jakley (born Oct 31, 1897 [Happy Hallows Eve]) and Robby (born Nov 9, 1900).  Happy to see that she did, in fact, care for him.

I've been doing some sketches lately, and I am working on a poem.  As soon as it is complete I will put it on here.

intrinsically,
Mav

Upward Over the Mountain by Iron & Wine
(No music video, this was the best quality, but there are a bunch of live versions on youtube if that would suit your searching fancy.)

Why do you wear that face everyday?

So it's getting cold out and I'm feeling reminiscent of school time.  Buying office supplies and paper and binders.  I graduated and I thought back then that I wouldn't ever miss it, and honestly I don't really miss it per-say but I miss having something to do. A routine.  I knew what I was doing every day.  I have two jobs now and while I usually know what I'm doing when I nanny those 2 days a week, my other job, in an office, is much more unpredictable.  It's nice to have the variety of workdays (filing one day, typing the next, gynastics the next, parks and pb&js the next, proofreading the next) its not really consistent in any way.  Some days I go in and they are like, "Well you can go home, we don't have anything for you to do."  Which in theory is nice because I don't have to work, but in reality it sucks because it means no pay for that day, which literally, completely and ultimately blows large monkey ball sacks.
But right now I'm sitting outside with my boyfriend.  I have a boyfriend now, did I mention that? Probably not considering its been over three months since I last updated.
BEE TEA DOUBLE YOU:  That poem I updated forever ago on here called "Ebb" it just got published in the Poets Across America and I am getting published again in the International Poets of 2012. I'm not sure if I want to send in a poem that I've already written or if I want to write something new.  Problem is right now I'm not feeling particularly inspired to write anything.  I guess maybe if I sat down and gave myself some time I'm sure I could come up with something.  I'm between a poem called "Imbued Atmosphere" and another poem that actually has no name yet, but I forgot that I even wrote it.  I was looking through my computer the other day and came upon it, as it were, and was completely surprised at how good it was.  I remembered writing it after I found it (it was about a dream I had had [which I later wrote into a short story] but it encompassed the feeling of it so beautifully, so wonderfully...I shall put it at the end of this post so you all can read it.

or right now MUAHAHA!!

(untitled)

this water must be shallow

            its warm

I am hiding from you

            sand slopes down my sides

            black streaks of my skin show through

breathe

the air in this water is heavy in my lungs but it’s still good

it’s safe to swim to the surface now;

fins ripple through the water, moving me upward

gasp

I am naked and my naked body is vulnerable to you now

no longer allowed under the water

            you can drag me down but I will drown

 Yes it is supposed to be spaced like that. Do not question my insanity! The ending it my favorite, perhaps I shall edit it more.  Give it some more time to breathe before fully releasing it to the world.)

So I've kind of completely fallen in love with this bbq sauce called Stubbs.  It's phenomenal.  My amazing boyfriend introduced me to it and there has been no going back.  Annoyingly, they don't sell it at Walmart anymore because they like to have people come in and leave disappointed.  I guess they gotta get their kicks somewhere. 

Bastard nincompoops. 

Hopefully, I will be updating more frequently now that I have kind of started to get things going in a semi-consistent sort of chaotic way.  We will see.  No promises, but some assurances that this will be the case.

Song of the day (thought I'd forget?)    The Boxer by Simon & Garfunkel (respectively)

Illusorily, 

Mav

It's bloggering time!!

It is funny to me how people always talk about their "heyday".  If you think about it, the people who have decided to stop living in their heyday always refer back to it.  "Well, back in my day..."  Like when if you (hypothetically) were popular and played football in high school but kind of dropped out and became a deadbeat in college then you will talk about the moments where you made big plays on the field or how all the girls loved you and you were in shape, and cute, and smart, and active, and CLEAN *cough*.  You may also notice people who were big losers in high school but totally blossomed in college will hardly ever mention high school.  Usually just all the crazy times they had in college.   All the drinking, drugs, sex, parties, forgotten nights (I guess we all remember that from college haha) and sex :P We all do it.  We've all done it before. But why is it always past tense?  Today is your heyday.  Live it up.

Something I've noticed people like to talk about as well is their relational lives (family, friends, lovers).  This is particularly important to some people if there has been a disaster (death, disease, weird estrangement).  Because that is what is important in our society today right?  What we have been through?  People brag about their accomplishments, sure, but what do they really brag about? Their struggles!  Look at me, look what I have been through, survived.  Triumphed over.

It's good to remember struggles and to learn from them and teach with them if you can, but should they be thrown out to impress?
Why do we do this?  Why is it that when I say, "Oh... my... god... that meeting was so boring." (simple, common statement) I have to fear a response of, "Omg! I KNOW! I had to sit through this meeting once that was like ten hours and all he talked about was how bad his toupee looked and how his wife doesn't like him, omg you have no idea I thought I was going to die of boredom, and then I got this itch right in my crotch and I couldn't do anything about it because I was in a meeting and I thought I was going to go absolutely mad like you have no idea and then the woman next to me started having a baby and I had to deliver it because I am the only one who (can save the world -_- doubt it) manage something like that and then instead of a baby it was a mutant and I had to cut its head off, but it kept regrowing so I had to gouge out its heart and force feed it to the mother in order to kill the thing.  OMG it was the worst meeting ever! I am the greatest individual ever for surviving such a trifling time! You have no idea. You have no idea."
Yes congratulations.  Your meeting was 10x more horrific than mine was.  Is that what you want to hear?
Though of course we all know it is never actually that grand, but more like "Omg our meeting was boring too, and it was about two hours longer," (imagine that in an effeminate male voice, kinda wispy and southern sounding...and a bit of a drawl [I'm actually imagining the landlord off Seinfeld. Or this guy Bruce that I know]).  Because it's truly become a game of subtlety.  Most people, however, forget the subtlety.  There is always a one-up in progress though.  If I get a bee sting (non allergic), they get a broken arm.  If I get dumped, they got cheated on.  If my dog dies at the ripe old age of 13, theirs got hit by a car as a puppy.  All of which somehow lead to the person somehow "nearly dying" or "being half-dead with sadness".  Also there is this thing of listing sicknesses and allergies.  I get it, you can barely eat anything.  I'm going to need you to submit this list typed and single spaced, please.

NEWS FLASH EVERYONE:
No one likes to be one-upped.  I hate it! I try not to do it.  Mostly because I hate when I am having a down day, or week, or ten minutes and here comes someone who (if they really cared about me would tell me how they feel bad instead of saying that I could be worse off because look what happened to them) says something like that and while I understand that they are trying to, I guess, sympathize in some way and show me that I am not alone or something, but really it just makes my problem seem small and stupid.  Bet I'm not the only one who has ever felt this way.

What is more sad than a world that is defined by its fuck ups?  A world that is full of people who are living out of their "heyday".  I know that I am young right now so technically I am still in my heyday, but I don't ever want to stop being in my heyday.  Do we look back on these "heyday" moments and think "I used to really live it up"?  Screw that!  Every day I want to wake up and think to myself,  "Man, I love my life. Right now."  Isn't that the way to live?  Anticipating the exciting future and not dwelling on the not-so-smooth past.

I guess I've digressed some, so maybe I should get off my soap box.

Maybe if you think about it one-upping is better than one-downing?  Imagine:  Person A- "I did not do well at all on that test."  Person B- "Oh yea? Well I've got a hangnail."

Burn.

Superstitious by Stevie Wonder <3 <3 <3

Musing,
Mav

PS:  I got my CPR and first aid cards in the mail today.  I am officially a life saver.
 Not the candy, mind you ;)
I also won first place in the competition for my poem Zombie.  I should be getting an award in the mail.  I'll put a picture up when it comes.

tiny splendor

Silently, in my room, I cried

I could feel You inside me.

You were already a part of me.

I keep the photo of You in my 

treasure box.  But secretly, 

I cherish Your photo most. 

Hotel California -- the Eagles

Great? Where do you get great?

Happy Saturday.
We ran out of regular coffee so I had to top off the filter with some blueberry flavored coffee.  It's not bad.  I don't put any sugar in my coffee.  Just a little soy milk.  I used to put regular milk but soy has just a touch of sweetness and its really creamy.  It compliments the blueberry well.  Haha look at me being all coffee snob.  geez.  Get a life. The blueberry smells really good though.

I think I wanna watch Seinfeld.  One of my housemates has the complete set.  I've seen a lot of them, but never in order.

Last night The Voices (in the Trees) [my brother's band] played last night at Speakeasy.  It was an alright show but the sound guy totally fucked up their performance.  They were echo-y and shit.  It was bad.  They said after that they could barely hear each other.  "There are good shows and bad shows." Seth Richardson

It is hard to "break up" with friends.  I have a friend and it's not like I could ever say to them "I don't think we should be friends anymore.  It's not working out." Because this person in particular would be very vengeful and talk trash to me and behind my back.  I might even worry about physical repercussions, such as keying my car or who knows.  They are a pretty creative person.  <_<  >_>

Oh the 80s.

I feel like I have found some friends that I am stuck being friends with.  Not just recently but like over the last 10 years haha. But that's good.  It makes life more interesting.  Also it should make you feel good if you have these kinds of friends in your life because it means that these people are genuinely interested in staying in touch with you.  Special.

Man, I've burned some plastic in my day.  I can't wait to start my job so I can get a paycheck and actually be able to save.  I want to get a tattoo and I think it's going to be a pretty decent size.  I am also starting to workout by walking at the moment but I plan to start run/walk/jogging (then just running eventually) fairly soon.

Hmm coffee needs a reheat...delicious

Song of the day is Sunshine of Your Love by Cream.
This is a pretty cool live video from 1968.  I love this song. O.O
They are so fucked up hahaa

Rapaciously,
Mav

I need to meet a decent man. Haha.

just Me and Lytta tonight

So it's been a while.
White grape cranberry juice is delicious!

So I'm back in Birmingham now.  I've been unpacking and it feels like I have twice as much stuff as I actually had.  Upon moving it all just multiplied.  Mated and spawned.  I've thrown a bunch of stuff away though.
It's kind of cathartic.  I've always wanted to do something like this. I have been decorating too.
I hung some curtains on my wall in this diagonal space.  I will upload a picture as soon as I frame and hang the poster I want right there too.  Then I upload the whole she-bang.
My brother's band practices in what was my moms old master bedroom.  Now it has been converted.  Windows padded over and furniture moved out and instruments moved in.  It's pretty cool.  They are here tonight practicing.  It's fun to hear the new stuff and the old stuff and the new riffs in old stuff.  It's fun.  It's not amazing clear because the wall is pretty muffly.  But I can still hear it pretty damn well.  Sometimes its really clear like when its just one person playing. But I guess that is the case any way.
I'm tired and hungry.  I wish I had more to say.

I met the kids that I am going to be nannying for.  They are so adorable.  The boy, Dawson, was having some slight separation stuff but the girl, Sydney, was completely fascinated with me.  She was playing with my sunglasses and my bracelets and my purse and the button on it and she just came and sat right in my lap.  It was so cute.  She just kept smiling at me.  Precious.  I can't wait to actually be nannying them so that I can instagram some photabulons!

So I may not have graduated college. I think that I needed a C in Shakespeare to graduate and I talked to my professor and she said if I got a C on the last paper and the final test then she would consider giving me a C.  Well I got a C on the paper.  People are just fucking bias.  It's been the semester from Hell.  And I thought I did pretty damn well on the final because I wrote what I thought was a pretty damn convincing essay for doing it on the spot.  But apparently I either did well on the final and she just decided not to give me a C or I didn't do well because my TA who grades all our shit thinks I am a slacker.
Also I wrote a really good Kafka paper for my World Lit class and she gave me a fucking D because she said I was misreading Kafka. WTF?! She gave us no guidelines at all for the paper.  Not even a length and then she says my ideas are wrong.  But isn't the point of a paper to explore our ideas? If she wanted me to write on something specific with a specific idea in mind then she should have given me a topic.

It's not that big of a deal I guess.  I still have my anthro degree. On the plus side I have found a decent paying job.  Just goes to show kids: you don't have to make perfect grades in school to get a decent paying job.

Fuck it.

Song of the day, brother: House of the Rising Sun by the Animals
dig it

I'm gonna go get some more food.......damn I wish we had milk......

Inquiringly,
Mav

Coy for Koi

Here is a poem (for a bit o' culture):

Ebb

The stone floor holds me steadfast

where I stand—the bass Vibrates into my

soles making my feet numb—my legs Jolt

            to the Thumping heartbeat in the speakers—

To and Fro my hips sway as an ocean in a storm;   fingers

            outstretched to the sky and spread wide—Tendrils of heavy

                        melody wrap and swirl around them.

                                    The tympans of my ears Enchanted by

                         pulsations, rhythmations, and incantations.

             sounds Dance around my body;  To the ends of the

                                    wisps of hair Falling around my face.  Swallowed

                                                into a world of harmonic cadence, I’m lost in a black

                                                            hole of colorful Undulating flow.

I have just recently found out that I may actually graduate.  Considering the suckyness of this semester and how it has absolutely killed me I am pretty ecstatic to be getting my second degree.  For a minute there I thought I might have to retake a class *dodges bullet* 

I think I want to study art now.  I took an art class this semester and loved it.  I want to get my teaching certification so that I can have that as a back up job if I need it at any point in my life.  Which I probably will.  I'd be a good teacher.  

Such a big turning point in my life is coming.  I have to go into the real world.  It's not as scary as I thought it would be.  I am really just super excited to get to go home and be with my family and friends. 

I think I'm going to take some classes at UAB.  But I'm gonna take a semester off. Fo shiznitz. I need a break and deserve one.  

Song of the day: Sail by AwolNation!!!

I looooove this song.  

I went to Byrdfest 4 this year.  I had so much fun! There was music and everyone was really friendly and people would just walk up and pack a bowl with you.  It was so nice.  I thought, "This is what it's about. People coming together to just enjoy the time and where we are in life right at the moment." There was music, but only really at night.  I don't remember any of the bands names (I went without even looking at who was playing.  It was less about the bands for me and more about just being there.) but there was this pretty decent Doors cover.

I loved being straight hippie for a couple days.  There were fire spinners of all different kinds: hula hoops, nun chucks, Chinese twirling sticks (or whatever they are called.  they look like this....rhythm/flower sticks?), long poles that looked like flags of fire, and some others too.  People also had hula hoops with lots of different colors.  My favorite things were the hula hoops and juggling balls that when held still looked like a buzzing white but when they moved they looked like a bunch of different colors.  It was great for my state of mind. 

There were parts of the trip that definitely made me think.  There is a difference between sticking to your guns and being completely unyielding in your mindset. It's good to be an individual and not just follow the crowd. There isn't one right way to do things.  It's just not that black and white, and if it was black and white then there would be no individuality in the first place! 

Saturday was great.  I woke up around 9:15 and turned to look at who else was awake in the tent and immediate got passed a pipe no questions asked. And we swam in the river and it was so pretty and it felt so good.  We ate shrooms and basked in the sun afterwards.  After that we just got extremely baked. One of the people I went with bought a gram of hash and packed it all into one bowl.  Oh my goodness... needless to say we all kind of zonked out in the tent about 3 hours later.  Everyone raged so hard Friday night and Saturday day that we were all exhausted by the night.  Even though I was up until midnight or so; I was a zombie.  

Sunday I woke up and it was fucking COLD! No one had zipped up the tent.  I had also brought a mattress pad (a twin) and when I went to get into bed at like midnight thirty (after walking ghostlike through the whole dark campground tripping to find it) I saw that three of the guys that came with us were laying with their top halves on it.  There was enough room for me and we slept like that.  Then I woke up in a cold sweat, yuck. But after getting up and getting dressed and packing up a little we had to chief an eighth because the guy that bought it couldn't take any back with him.  This was probably one of my favorite times of the weekend.  We were having trouble doing it because after 5 or 6 fat bowls we were like, "please, let it be done soon." So I suggested that we recruit people so one of the guys that came with us who was sitting in the door of the tent just yells at these guys walking by, "Hey, wanna help us smoke our weed." and they just came right over and we packed a second bowl and were passing around two.  It still took like 5 more bowls to kill it.  At one point we had a 10 person circle.  But I loved it. Like I said earlier, people coming together to share and just hang out and enjoy the moment (well maybe not everyone was enjoying the moment quite so much, but I know that I certainly did). 

I'd definitely go back again.  Except next time I'd bring more money (doh!) >.<

Well if you stuck through that whole post here is another song for you... Summer Breeze by Seals and Crofts

This doesn't have a video.  There are a lot of live ones, but the sound on them wasn't so great so here is one with great sound and you can check out the others if you feel so inclined. 

Insouciantly,

Mav

T- 26 hours

Song of the day is Ends by Everlast

It's cool to start a post with it right? Speaking of which I just updated that page so all the songs of the day should be up to date. One of my residents gets bags of runts. But she only likes the banana ones and she gives me the bag without the banana.  I really only like the Red and Purple ones.  So usually there are bags of green and orange runts sitting around lol.

quirky......

I'm feeling pretty good right now.  Even thought shit is about to hit the mother fucking fan.  I'm mean....it's gonna get biblical.  lol.

Here's another good song.  Songs for everyone!!!  Savior by Rise Against

I have faith in tonight though.  I believe it will be a pretty good night.
I can't wait to be back at home.  I can't wait to have a kitchen and bake things! and cook things! I love to bake.  Cakes and brownies and cookies and pies! and then other things too haha

But it will be nice to have an actual kitchen again.

I can't wait to be old an crazy.  Like off my rocks nuts!  lol MMMM I know what I want to do. Get lit and have a reeeeaaaallly hot shower! yessssss! damn. I'm still stuck at this horrible desk for an hour.  Sighhhhh.  soon though.  You can't keep me from my glorious shower forever!!

Haha I just sneezed and smelled dank ::giggle::
So I hope everyone is looking forward to 420 because I know that I am.  I have no classes Friday so it's open season, my friends.

I love Dilbert.  Here is the comic strip from the day I was born!

It's not particularly funny or anything, but it's from when I was born a thousand years ago.  So close to getting off work.  Then just a ten minute staff meeting and then I'll be hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-IIII-iiigh as a kite by then.

Have another... On My Way by Billy Boy on Poison

Video of the month or whatever is actually a tv show that I love.  It's called Peep Show.  It's British.  You should all watch it.  Give it a few episodes.

Mav

I was Frightened but I held Fast

I feel like I need to update because I hate that pissy update being the one at the top.   Because I'm not upset anymore.  I got this great new piece.  It hits soooooo nice.  its a steamroller.  love...it.....

So I think I've told y'all but you can follow me on twitter if you want MidNiteMaverick.
That's an option.

I love Conan.  I know a lot of people think he is silly, but that is the whole damn point! Sometimes, people just need to lighten up.  Haha cartoon voices.  Reminds me of Marcel the Shell which you should all watch.

Here's the link....Marcel the shell with shoes on

There is a second that is really funny too.  I don't have a whole lot of things to talk about.  I need to shower.  I think I'm gonna catch a rocket to the best shower ever located on Jupiter.

Song of the day is Rocket Man by Elton John.  This isn't an actual video but all the videos were live and I like the song without all the shouting.  But feel free to check out the live videos.  I love me some Elton.

Peace, friends.
Mav

Pissy Day

I was going to vent about all my sadness today, but I deleted it all.  I felt like a big stupid baby.  I have been watching Peep Show all day and now I hear all these little British quips in my head like bullocks and bloody hell.  It's a short post because I need to just get out of this hell hole. If I don't end it now I'll get all mushy and pathetic.

Esoterically,

Mav

Song of the day I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace

Am I free or am I tied up?

It's times like these where I am torn between selling out and going broke.  I thought about writing blogs for money, but I've decided that almost completely negates the point of writing the blog in the first place.  Which, for me, is being able to say exactly what I want to say about anything I want to talk about.  BEAUTY!  I thought about it though.  I did, however, send in my application for a nanny job.  I am excited about this nanny venture. (Go team Venture!)

I have been really productive actually.  I got my art stuff done.  Now I should read some Shakespeare I suppose.  I am totally out of Mary.  I did start listening to my Mumford and Sons Pandora station today.  Usually I just go straight to my Beatles station because I love it, but today I was in the mood for something a little folk-y-er.  So I am loving this today.
I don't know why I didn't think of it earlier.  But the song of the day is Seven Seeds by Voices in the Trees!!
This is my brothers band.  He is the lead singer, Seth.  On bass is Gary Brown. Guitar is Bradford Sims.  Drums is Patrick Harrison, and Molly (his wife) is on viola.  You can check out more of their music on iTunes or they have a facebook, twitter, and myspace.  Check them out!  Also on facebook they list their shows and things and you should try to make one if you live close by.  I will also try to upload some photos or videos (if they turn out -_- video cameras can be very fickle with sound)

Actually here are some pictures of the band.  I am so proud of them ^_^

From left to right is Molly, Gary, Brad, Seth.

My brother, Seth. 

I love instagram.  My name is TympanicPulse if you want to follow me.  I don't upload as much as I like to look at pictures that other people put up.  But I put up quite a few.  I'm on Twitter too (MidNiteMaverick). Haha I like to think to myself that I am not all sucked into the mass social network but I am.  I did, however, delete a bunch of friends on facebook and I am very selective now with friends and don't add most people.
I don't know how I feel about the new user interface they are changing blogspot too.  It's kind of plain.

We all like to think we are special, right?  Then it's always the people we want to think we are special the most are the ones that never say it (a good example would be a father).....(or maybe a significant other)
I try not to get all sappy in these updates.  People don't want to read emotional shit.  People want to laugh, escape from their own sucky lives by living vicariously through mine.  haha maybe anyway.

I see good things in my future.

Hopefully,
Mav

(Bed High)


Ceilings. Lights. ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffllllllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggg. FLASHING! It's true that we're poor and pathetic and passive aggressive because we can't afford to just be. aggressive. 

The Creation of Lions

Back when the world was still one continent, there was a band of Amazons.  The women hated the men and their domineering ways.  They chose a few to keep for breeding and invited the others to a dinner.  The women used witchcraft to concoct a potion which they gave the men in their drinks.  This potion turned the men into lions with really short dicks.  The men were confused and frightened at their sudden transformation and fled.  Later, the men got together to retaliate.  The women were over confident for they had made the male lions too strong.  The women decided that to be more evenly matched they should turn themselves into lions, and they drank the potion.  The men, fueled by vengeance, were still stronger and overthrew the women.  From then on the males forced them to have extremely short bouts of non-pleasurable sex over and over.  They were also forced into the labor of hunting and child-rearing. 

Mav

Song of the day is Who Says by John Mayer!!  

It's like we both said 'I Like You'

Have you ever checked out that animated 3D porn or whatever it is? It's weird.  It's like watching animated (almost said reanimated. Haha ZOMBIE BARBIES!) barbies have strange plastic sex.  Do they know they are infertile? Someone should tell them.  But who are we to take away their bliss.  Mules are sterile but do we stop them from gettin' freaky?

I need a deep thinking movie to watch. I've decided upon Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.  One of my favorites.

Dry times are the absolute worst times.

Oh resin how you are so wonderful.  How could you just decide to erase a part of your memory. I wish you could experience both keeping and getting rid of the memory.  So you could go back if you wanted.  I think all our memories are important.  But if you have a memory of erasing two years of your life and then finding out about it then cant that be the experience that is important?

Slow progression in reverse. It would be strange to be remembering the things as they are being erased.  Jumping all around.  Telling the story.  Hey the pothead friend is Tobias Funke from Arrested Development! ^_^

I don't like fighting.  In couples.  Well not really in any way (except maybe a good rpg).  But I don't like when wives throw things at their husbands or when husbands are portrayed as idiots.  I think it's not true at all, but it probably is.  I don't want to have that with my future husband.  I want to bicker with subtle jabs at each others ego.

It's funny that he almost gets hit by a car (with the possibility of dying) and he is on his way to erase his memory.  It's interesting because it should put things into perspective for him (Joel [Jim Carey]).

Mmm tingly tingly.

I almost got to go on this beautiful trip today, but then my ride never showed up.  I was so completely sad about it.

See I'm not a party-er.  I like to sit at home.  Have a bowl.  Make some pasta or a sandwich.  Maybe turn on some Married With Children and fire up the warcraft.

I like when Joel starts realizing that he is erasing her.  What a weird realization it would be to come to and experience.  It's too bad he cant remember the experience of forgetting.  Will he? They are erasing the parts with Clementine in them. So in the parts where he is just confused trying to turn around will little blips of memories within memories come through?

Haha I just had a moment.  I'd tell you but I'll keep it a secret because I like having secrets.  Just falling around and doing the scenes and then remembering that he is erasing her.  It's an odd juxtaposition.

I want peas...

Song of the day is Voodoo Child by Jimi Hendrix!!! I am a Hendrix fanatic! I love his grinding guitar.  Gives me the vapors.

incredulously,
Mav

Mmmm... I want corn.

Sometimes I just sit there listening to people talk like I care what they are saying.  It's always 'he said this' and 'she said that' and 'I just don't understand'.  It'll work itself out.  Obsessing about it isn't going to change it.

I bought From Hell with Johnny Depp (my favorite actor) and I have decided to make this the movie of the week (month? whatever it is.  Movie of the time being). It's a really great movie about Jack the Ripper.  Give it a look-see and you will look.  And you shall see.

I'm on a Johnny Depp spree because tonight I am watching Secret Window.  I love it so much!  I also love the other actor in Secret Window, John Turturro.  He is amazing.

I've decided I want to learn to roll really well.  Because in the movie From Hell he rolls this black cigarette on camera and then lights and smokes it and it is so sexy.  I want to be that good at it.  It's Johnny Depp love week because I've been watching his movies and discussing him haha. I wonder if there is a commentary on the From Hell disc.  I'll have to look.  I love listening to commentaries.  Especially on quiet movies because then its really quiet too.

This is gonna be a short one because I am tired and have to get some rest before I have to work at 1230.  SHOOT ME!

Sweet Dreams,
Mav

Song of the day is Little Room by the White Stripes!!

The Red Pill

I wish I could organize my iTunes into different times in my life and I could have a "now" playlist that is just always shuffling.  It automatically adds and deletes songs and categorizes and re-categorizes.  That would be so badass.  Why isn't the word 'badass' a word yet?  It has it underlined in red on this site.  Whatever.

I wonder a lot how much time I have.  I wonder if it's already decided somewhere or if I am the one that survives. I wonder if there really is religion and say it's one where you are reincarnated and depending on how good or bad you were you get to have a better or worse next life or whatever.  Anyway. If it is like that and we just have to live here and wonder and not get to know then that is stupid.  Why not just tell us? I feel like that is a really interesting thing to think that if religion is so good then why does it keep so many secrets? To have power over those of us that want the information.  Why can't we just know we are going to have a thousand lives. Then we can at least know what we are working towards.

Sometimes I try to act like I'm all cool about actually knowing nothing about the world/social order/ religion/ afterlife thing.  I say things like, "There are just some things we just probably aren't supposed to know," and people think I am so at peace and at-one with the universal flow and importance and existence.  But seriously I question these things.  I think it's ridiculous to believe it's ok to stop questioning the world.  If we stop questioning then we stop growing as individuals in spirit and consciousness.

I think there is something to be said about the person is just so chill about the finality of things.  How many people are actually cool with being dead tomorrow?  It's a scary thing.  Because it's the ultimate situation of being thrown into the unknown.  We have no idea what happens after we die! We have all these ideas and religions that think they know what happens but no one actually knows.  They just feed us their ideas and we believe in whichever one sounds the most likely to maybe possibly happen.
But I also think to get to the point where you are really chill with finality you  have to have already gotten to the point where you see your inter-connected-ness and importance in the greater span of what we believe is time.  Which is a huge thing.  Sometimes I just feel so inconceivably small in the concept of time.

Maybe the best rout to nirvana is through music.  The song of the day is Heart Shaped Box.

Mav

We Shall Scrimp and Save

Well kids its Spring break on this end of the rabbit hole.  Notice I said this end not a particular end by which you may triangulate my location but merely this end which is ambiguous as can be. Teehee where am I?

Today's song of the day I'm gonna say it right now because it is on my mind and I don't want to forget.... it is Time in a Bottle by Jim Croce!!!
I love this song so much.  It is almost haunting.  Jim I love you.

How awesome would it be if we could recognize our peak in our lives and we can choose to just stop our lifetimes there and live there forever.

Why are we here? What is this purpose? When are we gonna start asking the scary questions like what if things really do end.  Because what is past the universe? There has to be something. But if there is nothing then it must just end.  They say the universe is expanding.  What is it expanding into? Did nothing get an infection and now this something that got on it is taking over...   And then if there is something past the universe or even if there is nothing, humans can't comprehend nothing.  We never experience nothing, ever.  It's impossible.  In our world there is always something and nothing is a hugely abstract concept.  It's a frightening concept.

Did any of you ever watch the never ending story as a kid? well all the people are afraid and running because the nothing is going to swallow them up.  Just that there is a force bigger than everything and it's nothing.

I am so glad to be home for spring break.  It's just oh so nice to be out of Oxford.  I get such a cooped up feeling there.  Hopefully I'll have more time to post this next week.

Your's sincerely wasting away,
Mav

Back in the Ford of Oxen

It has been such a long time since I updated, and I am terribly sorry about that.  I'm watching That 70's Show and Kelso and Fes just hallucinated a pink horse from being drunk.  WTF?  Sorry kiddies, that just doesn't happen.  Beer will only hurt you and make you sad.  Or kill you.
I've been home the past few weekends.  More and more I am feeling that I hate it here in Oxford and cannot wait to go back to Birmingham.  Arda likes it better in Birmingham.

Hot Pockets are so good!!  I have the four cheese...delicious.

I got new grey high tops and I love them.  I've got a little sore spot on my pinkie toe.  Donna is so uptight on this show.  She gets mad at eric for every damn thing.  And she always storms off like it is the most offensive thing ever!  And shes kind of butchy and thick anyway.  I don't know.  It's like a Marilyn Monroe kind of thick, but not as good looking. Haha. Jackie and Kelso don't need to be together.

Look at me getting all into this show.  It's interesting if you think about how tv shows are filmed.  When they are sitcoms then you can tell it's on a stage but when it's a drama it seems to be filmed on location a lot more with actual outside and stuff.  It's interesting.

Haha I just heard some people in the hall doing the christmas carol that goes like ha haha ha  ha haha ha...whatever anyway it sounded like honking geese.  Eric and Donna are gross together.

It has to be  weird to do a scene where you are sitting in your figurative coffin.  I want to be cremated

I ate too much chex.  They are just so delicious.

I'm so ready for break next week.  Every day I get excited that it's just a little closer.  It's not even like I'm doing anything cool, it will just be nice to not be here.

Song of the Day is Sail by AWOLNation!!!
I am in LOVE with this song.  It blows my mind.

I'll be updating more now.

Sedately,
Mav

This is going on your PERMANENT record.

I've been looking for a job or ways to earn money. Because I have a job.  I'm looking up on Craigslist.  Also, I'm selling books on amazon.  BUY THEM!  I'm throwing a St. Patrick's party and I'm going to collect money for that so that I don't have to spend as much to make it awesome.

 I'm visiting home this weekend.
I wanna be a bartender for a little while I think.  They make pretty good tips and I liked when I worked at the coffee shop being able to just leave my whole paycheck in the bank and spend my tips.  It was great.  Then I could actually save money and travel.  Cause I got places I want to see and experience.  It's ridiculous how expensive everything is.  It's more ridiculous that the school I work for pays me about fifty cents a decade! Then they don't understand why we all slack off and don't care and hate doing anything for them.

You have to give to receive.

I just realized I forgot last weeks movie of the week.  So I will do two this time.

First its Dazed and Confused! This is one of my favorite movies! It's not particularly action packed or anything, but it's pretty comical. The guy Kevin Pickford is so hot! I could just eat him up!

I wish Martha Washington was waiting for me when I got home with a fat bowl waiting for me. Jealous of you George.

The second is Garden State.  Just a great all around movie with Zach Braff and Natalie Portman.

Song of the day is Mary Jane's Last Dance by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers!!!

Productively,
Mav

We Live in a Fake World

I was just standing on my bed pretending to do the Lion King hold baby Simba over the edge of the rock just now and I thought I'd write and tell you that I was doing it because it's absurd.  I'm currently waiting to chill with one of my friends.  I'm re-watching Conan.  Oh awesome I get to watch the horrible bomb and recover of the comedian they had tonight.  It hurts. When you watch things that are embarrassing, even if they aren't happening to you, it still feel embarrassing and you want to hide your face.  Like he gets off on this weird tangent and when he realizes its failing he just goes, "That's not even part of it, it's cool, we're having fun." And no one laughs except a couple people laughing uncomfortably.  Then he will have a good joke.  The best in the whole thing and then he just has a weird pause of silence after the audience stops laughing.  He really just needs to work on his timing and his audience reaction reactive-ness...

Good moment.

Bad, bad moment.

Oh that's better.

Yes, end on that note. Just walk off stage and let them remember you this way.

God I want mac n cheese.   Extra cheesy.  with Taco bell sauce and hot dog slices.  Fucking delicious.

George gets so caught up in the dramatic situation and does really stupid stuff.  I am ashamed of myself.  I have set a food curfew for 11 PM and I have failed at it every night.  But I think it's ok because I think I am legitimately hungry.  I haven't eaten since about 7:30 so it's ok. I forgive myself and that is the most important thing.
I've been thinking about going through all my clothes and getting rid of a whole bunch. Speaking of! my pants ripped the other day.  It's on the inner thigh but not too high up and it's not super noticeable yet so i'm just gonna not worry about it.  I don't have the money for a new pair of jeans anyway. But I do want some bell bottoms.  If I sell some more of these books.  When I go back home for Spring Break I'm gonna take whats left of the book I haven't sold on amazon and take them to 2nd & Charles.  I love that place.

I'm gonna be a shady old person.  That crazy lady that all the kids tell stories about.  I'd love to be in ghost stories haha.  At the same time I don't if I want to be scary crazy or just cool weird crazy.  Definitely the latter.

Poor Jerry.
Kramer is the best though. I miss my fishtank.  It's gurgling and bubbling added so much good chi to my room.  I need to buy more incense and candles too.  I love to mix and match scents to create amazing combinations.  Woo! I just bought some online.  They were out of my favorite (again -_-) but I bought one of each of the other flavors they have available (only three kinds) and I am super excited to receive those in about a week.  (0_0) YAY!

Song of the day is Changing by Saosin!!!
I first saw this video while sitting at the desk about two years ago.  I love songs that have moments of silence in them.  It's such an incredible build up of energy and then the explosion of sound right after.  It's beautiful. It's like a quick surprised breath.  That intake of air.

Well I guess it's about time to hit the ole dusty trail.

Soaringly,
Mav

The Dark of the Matinee is Mine

I may be going to another beautiful place soon I hope.


Some Things I Hate
(In no particular order)

1) Corn sugar commercials
2) Live Links commercials
3) Rude food service workers
4) Closed-mindedness
5) Hard cookies
6) Traffic
7) Dirty socks
8) Bigots
9) Olives
10) Being out of weed

The other day I felt like I was living a Seinfeld type life.  Like its a show about nothing.  But in being a show about nothing its a show about life.  It's funny to me when they do flashbacks.  In hindsight and taken out of context things seem so shallow and stupid but when you are living it it seems like just the thing you are supposed to do. That's how all of life is.  You just do what you can for the time being then you look back on it later and see what you would have done differently and apply it to the future if it is ever applicable.

I handed in my first art project today for class.  I am just taking the first class (2d design) for fun but we had to do 25 sketch pages and I said I'd put up some art so here are a couple:

I just watched the movie Driftwood and it was pretty much crap.  It was supposed to be a "thriller" but it was more like a juvi/mental hospital for troubled teens and there was a murder and now he haunts them to figure out his murder....I am not entirely sure.

Thar be a shipwreck down in the depths of these here parts.

Song of the day is Layla by Eric Clapton!! It's the unplugged version of the song which is a hundred times better and there is no music video.  It's just a bunch of live videos so here is the song but no actual video.  You can feel free to look those up on your own.

Hypnotic,
Mav

Holler

I don't actually have anything pertinent to say but I really wanted to upload (almost typed uplard haha) this song of the day because it is rockin' my world.

The song of the day is I Want You (She's So Heavy) by The Beatles!

It's a bit of a long one.  About 8 minutes.  But it's totally worth, perfect to chill to.  Listen.  It's amazing.

Mav

hm I am baked

I'm watching this movie Cool World.  It's go Brad Pitt in it.  It is actually quite intricate and I'm enjoying it.  I am completely sucked into this movie. Now it's Nat Geo's Life After People.  I love Nat Geo.  It's my favorite channel.  I love this show.  I don't know why, I'm curious.

How the hell does being cryogenically frozen work? And who just decides "Oh I'm gonna wait around for a different period" of in which there are still problems. There will always be problems.  You can't out wait that! This show is cool though because it gives you a since of perspective on humanity and its importance and delicacy.  Nature is the only absolute.  We talked about in my Victorian Lit class about something being an evolution and being a revolution.  And a revolution is quick (meteor) but evolution is slow (descent of man).  Speaking of the descent of man why is it called a "descent"? I don't think we are going down the evolutionary tree.  I don't think the tree has an up and down at all.  It has a start and current, but not a more adapted/ less adapted.  Because everything that exists in a certain time is perfectly adapted for just that time.  And when things change so do features and that's how it happens.  So we man be much more advanced and complicated than our amoeba ancestors but they were just as well suited for their environment as we are to ours now.  Ya dig?

I want a parrot.

Do you ever watch Married with Children?  If so, do you ever feel like Al just completely takes Peg for granted? I mean she's a milf!

Reviews are a big thing these days.  My movie of the week is Office Space!! I know it's a few days early but I'm watching it right now and I just feel the need to do it right meow.

The song of the day is WTF? by OK Go!!! I fucking love OK Go!! You may know them as the treadmill guys.

Space Cowgirl,
Mav

Kicks like a Shotgun to the Face

It's just a stay up late kind of night.  I feel as if I have been really productive.  I will soon be starting a vlog.  Where as this is pretty much just whatever the hell comes into my head the vlog will be more about what's actually going on outside and what I actually do.  I'll try to have guests whenever possible.  But that is in the making at the moment and I will let you know when that is up and running.

God you forget how heavy some movies are.  Hotel Rwanda is on right now and I had seen it before and remembered thinking it was great. Very powerful.  But my mind had conveniently forgotten all the more brutal bits and now that I am watching it again it's just like God! take a breath!

It's a good night.  Do you ever have those night where you just feel like you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Doing exactly what you should be doing.  And thinking just what you need to be thinking. Because I feel that way right now.  It's really nice.  Kind of a sigh of relief because who doesn't worry about the future? I know if I haven't worried about it (because I'm really not a worrier) then I've at least wondered about it.  I mean How much does it matter?

God it's so damn embarrassing as a white person to watch this movie.  They are so horrible. WHat would happen if they just evacuated everyone? If they just all came to America, the UK, Australia, or whatever and all the people left, what then? It's not really plausible I don't guess. This movie really sucks you in. Horrible.  when they are driving and they are going over those bodies.  Just horrific. I wonder if anyone else is watching this movie right now...

OMG!! I just went to the machine to get a drink and lately I've been drinking a lot of Mello Yello cause that's normally what they have and on this machine it said vault was one of the choices.  Now there hasn't been Vault round these parts in at least a year.  Which is devastating to me because I think I had an addiction.  Vault is pretty much just the modern version of Surge in the 90's.  So This machine says vault and right above that is Sprite.  I hate Sprite.  I drank it a lot when I was a kid because my older brother, Seth, drank it all the time and I thought he was cool so I drank it too.  But I was worried that there wouldn't be Vault but was hoping it was Mello Yello and praying it wasn't Sprite and I hit the button and out pops a beautiful Vault.  I got so excited! I ran back to my room and HAD to text my brother, Ian, who also loves the drink.  And I didn't actually expect him to reply, but he does and all he says it, "Well I'll be a son of a bitch..." For the record: It's delicious and I don't see why you took it off the shelves.
Honestly, that first drink was so good.  I felt like I was relapsing.  Ever had that first hit of something after a really long time.  I swear I think I was addicted to Vault.  I used to have it every day.  And I remember if I didn't get one I felt like I needed to have it.  Maybe that's why it's not marketable.  It's so good though.  I'll be sad if this is the last one ever.  If it's not I'll be sad when my stash runs out.  I fear how long it will be until the next awesomely addictive soda.

mmmm it's soooo good.

Song of the day is A Horse with no Name by America!  This is one of my favorite songs.

Satiated,
Mav

it's an angry mob tonight

I thought you might find it interesting that a lot of times I start my blog entry with the song of the day.  I mean I don't always.  Sometimes I'll listen to music for several hours before I pick my song.  Then it may take me several hours to post.  I don't rush myself.  That is silly.  Maybe it's not surprising, but there is the insight.

I finally gave into the new facebook.  The timeline.  Honestly, I feel like its a bit busy, but I love the picture at the top.  I picked this picture.

It's pretty nifty looking on my page.  I like that it is just black on the right.  I am a big fan of color.  I love it.  

As you can probably tell by my background I like the light photography.  It's very cool.  I actually took this picture.  It's a road in Birmingham.  

I'm watching Seinfeld on TBS.  I don't have cable so TBS is one of the few channels I actually get and I literally never change the channel, because I don't have a remote because a ceramic bowl full of water and a fish fell off a table on top of it and my remote just...hasn't ever been the same.  Anyway, shit, I don't remember what I was saying.  It was something about a commercial.  But I do know that I love Seinfeld.  It's just so funny.  

I want to make a T-shirt that says:

The HUMAN Fund

   MONEY FOR PEOPLE

Imma make it.  I'll upload a photo if it turns out. Sometimes I think little creatures get into my room and they are squeaking at me.  All I can think is "Oh damn, it's gonna breed!" But I don't want to go over there and do anything about it.  Does that speak to my laziness or my acquiescence? I like to think its the latter.

I have this urge to eat bread dough.  I love it.  It's so good. 

Song of the day is I Disappear by The Faint!

Alternate song of the day is Blister in the Sun by Violent Femmes!!

Delicately,
Mav

Let the Wig do the Acting

I was in my Victorian Lit class today and we were talking about the perception of time and how people are trapped in a snapshot and trying to maintain but time never stops moving forward.  Now I'm not gonna sit here and prattle convoluted mumbo jumbo about humanity and time.  But if you want you can go and read the poem right here--->>> Mariana by Tennyson. And if you think you want to say something about it then you are more than welcome. !

I want to see this movie coming out called The Woman in Black.  It's got Daniel Radcliffe as the main character. I know this person who said they could never see it because it had him in it and he will only ever be Harry Potter.  What?  You're gonna completely cut the boy off because he did one (8) multi-million dollar movie(s of the same series)  I have faith that he will do well.  Oh no now I remember that she said she couldn't watch How to be Successful in Business Without Really Trying because he was in it.  So dumb.
Has anyone watched that original movie.  It's completely strange and almost Willie Wonka-esque.

Song of the day is Far Away by Jose Gonzalez!
You may recognize it from the game Red Dead Redemption.  I remember the first time I heard it.  I was sitting in my old dorm room and my boyfriend of the time was playing it in this round purple chair I had.  I had to get rid of that.  No room.  Anyway, we had a ps3 and I was on the little loveseat next to him.  And he crosses over into Mexico and this song starts playing and I'm listening and I look up and I just get entranced by this scene where you are just riding your horse and running along this lonely dirt road for the whole song.  It was so cool.  By the way if you have never played this game it is not only amazing but also completely beautiful! The detail is phenomenal.

Movie of the week is The Royal Tenenbaums!
This movie is from 2001 about a dysfunctional family.  It's fantastic.  Wes Anderson is a great wonderful director.

Insidiously,
Mav