Stoner Thoughts on Life's little Eccentricities Part 2

It's been really rainy out and I'm loving it.  It's so quiet and peaceful. You can hear the geese honking.  I'm sitting on my back porch smoking a ciggy.  I would love to live in the city.
So Alive.

Good Flick.

I think that 71 degrees is the perfect temperature for my apartment.  I'm completely comfortable.

My boyfriend is doing really good tonight in call of duty.  I think it's just cooler to watch because I'm cookie crisp.

I wish I could explain what just occurred between myself and my roommate.  We were discussing the end of the world and when the next year would be 12/12/12.

I made some homemade cookie biscuits.  They are good.  I would serve them at breakfast.  Put syrup on them.  Or molasses?!!

The amazing world of Gumball.  Watch it.
How creepy would it be if the sun was a big smiling face just looking down at us.
Sometimes I daydream about living in the wilderness away from everyone and living off the land.  Walking through the trees and shit.  I think it'd be cool.  It would be great just to be away from people.  Get a couple dogs, have my Arda.  Eat fresh grown veggies and hunt.  Hell yea.

We're all just people.
Guys get man caves.  I want a woman cave.  But I think I'll call it something else.  Maybe it will be my den.  Personal den.  It's gonna have dark room and a couch and my chair.  And I think I need to have bookshelves of some sort.  I would put my tv in there with my Xbox too.  And I'll have a rug and a fishtank. It's where I'd do a lot of my crafty things.

Got a free razor in the mail.  Sweet!

Country Song - Seether
Think I got a good song for y'all.

Ripped,
Mav

Stoner Thoughs on Life's little Eccentricities

I am just so much better at thinking out loud in a way that seems partially interesting when I'm stoned.  People dis weed for some unknown reason. The one thing I dont like is that I get distracted.

I'm hungry.

Watch AFV is great. So funny.  I have this necklace that I really like and I am wearing it now and I feel fancy.  So I just wear it naked. Haha I originally wrote baked twice by accident but its true too hahahahaha. Fully reccoment watch the Hard Times of RJ Berger.  It's fucking hilarious.

So I don't know if you've ever watched team oomizoomi on NickJr but it's not bad.  But I always think its funny how they say something and then pause to wait for an answer lol like they are insane.

I like that little oomi car though.

I wish that I lived somewhere that we got a lot of snow so I could build a snowman and put funny things on it like an inner tube.
They have this thing called oomi goggles. And it's just you putting your hands up to your face and the little cartoons do it and I imagine them as really enthusiastic teen group leaders at a kids camp.

The show bubble guppies is weird.  I can't imagine living underwater.  Your stuff would always be weat and we would get cold.  But on the show they are going camping and have a sleeping bag so I guess it would keep you warmer but you'd still get really cold.  I like that little outside song though.
How did they get to outer space and are still underwater? is their whole universe inside the snow globe of some other dimension?
Since when are there bears on the dark side of the moon? Are they escaped NASA test subjects that somehow learned to thrive in the low gravity vacuum of the moon's surface.
Keep the balloon off the ground with a five year old while warm and toasty. Win.
I'm totally gonna build wicked forts with my kids.

I kind of look forward to getting where I need glasses because I think they will look really good on me.  All hipster and shit.
I love That 70's Show.  Hyde is dreamy.
I think I'll watch the Office next.
But Hyde can be a real twat because of how he gets Eric so good with burns.  I like those special times where Red is proud of something Eric did.
I look like such a stoner right now.

Sex and Candy by Marcy Playground

Shout out to my bestie: Build Me Up Buttercup: The Foundations

Happily,
Mav

Arda enjoying the cozy fire.

Some new art.

He's happy because he's insane!

So I haven't been updating much lately.  Getting ready for the holidays and trying to figure out how to tell the people I nanny for that I'm quitting the end of december so I can start my new office job that is full time with set hours and free weekends.  can't beat that.  no sirree.

I wonder if i just have less to say.  I put up my tree this week.  I love it. we just put lights on it.  it's cute and fun.  We want to slowly add ornaments over time.  so it'll be fun.  I got a bunch of stocking stuffers for them as well.  I would mention them on here but I don't want my boyfriend to read it and then his surprise be ruined.  he is so bad about trying to figure out every gift I get him.  that ruins the whole point of it being a surprise! lol

over the weekend i invited an old friend from high school over to catch up and bake and my roommate that isnt my boyfriend has this girl that he is trying to be with and she is like super self conscious about being around other people and everytime they come over here he kicks us out of our own apartment.  and this time i told him i was having a friend over on tuesday and thursday he is like what time are yall gonna be out of here because my girl is coming over.  I was like i hadn't planned to leave but.... and he just was like cool be out by 9 if you can.  dillhole.  its my apartment too.  i left this time but next time he does that i'm gonna be like no i already made these plans you can find somewhere else to go.

i'm looking forward to christmas break.  i'm also looking forward to having paid time off and vacation days and holidays off and stuff.  am i getting sucked into the daily grind?  I need to keep my mind free.

one of my best friends is coming to visit in the next couple weeks and i'm really excited because i haven't seen him in like a four months and we are going to make crafts and get toasty and have a fire.  its going to be fun and my boyfriend will be there and we are probably going to go bowling which I LOVE to do. haha.  I hate it when its really crowded though.  i just don't care for crowds.  but when its less crowded it can be a lot of fun.  I went with my family during thanksgiving and we had a lot of fun.

kyle wants me to get my own shoes.  I will eventually.  and my own ball.

i've been smoking less cigarettes.  I only smoked 2 today.  yay progress!! idk if i will totally give it up until i get pregnant. but i think i'm ok with 2 or 3 a day.  thats not that bad.

consistently,
Mav

Ecclesiastes 5:2

First things first....

My office job that I work at has recently asked me to go full time and I am totally going to go for it.  Don't get me wrong.  I love nannying and the kids but at the same time it just does not pay the bills. I'm also going to be starting school in the Spring and Southern Co (the people I work for) will pay partial tuition.  Probably has a limit of money (like up to $1000 or something) but since I'm only going to be taking one or two classes a term it may just pay for all of it.  Which is...
phe
nom
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nal.
But that wont start until January.

I went to the Eric Church concert the other day when it came into town.  Opened with Kip Moore and Justin Moore.  It was a good show.  I like Eric Church but a couple of the songs I was unaware of and one I really liked was Creepin'.  It has this amazing Louisiana bayou sound that just makes my heart crave. I went with my boyfriend who is a huge Eric Church fan and now I see why.  He put on a fantastic show.  Dude is a nutter.  Our friend got this great picture of him from in front with his leg all kicked and there is smoke its just a silhouette.  I got this good picture during that song mentioned above.

But the show was great I got a t-shirt for it since it was my first concert with my boyfriend and also they had cool t-shirts haha. 

Here is another photo from the opening act of Justin Moore where he got everyone to turn on their cell phone lights and he sang this sweet song but it was so pretty to see all those lights.  It was much cooler when I was there but here is an idea of it. 

So I watched this movie the other day that really stuck with me.  It's called Forget Me Not (and that's the trailor).  When I first started watching it I thought it was going to be some typical shitty slasher teen film but it actually ended up being really good and it was a mind twister.  I loved how the story changed after deaths and how you didn't really know what was going on until it all came together at the very end.  Even at the end you were still left wondering about some things.  Not in a unsatisfying way but in like a that's messed up and crazy and great kind of way.  I would definitely recommend everyone give it a looksie.  If you aren't a big scary movie person well get over it because this movie is more than just scary movie.  It's suspense and drama and the acting is good and its got a good twist.  I am making this movie of the now. Watch it!!

Here's a quote for you.

"Experience is the child of thought, and thought is the child of action." Benjamin Disraeli

Exhausted,

Mav

You get two today :) Enjoy.

Get Together - The Youngbloods

(I like the 60's montage in the background)

And two:

Sunny Afternoon - The Kinks

Last first Saturday of November in 2012 ever! (the only one)

Ever notice how almost all scary movies are 'happy family moves into a new house and then things start happening'.  I'm watching the Haunting in Salem and these people get a house for free.  I don't know if I'd want to buy a house for free because that is really too good to be true.  It would have to be free because there was something terribly wrong with it.
Damn shit just happening right when they get there.
THAT'S WHERE IT LIVES!

It would suck to wake up and think you are really awake but really its a dream.  That would suck.  Then when you actually did wake up you would always wonder if you were really awake. What if we are really all just asleep and the world really is some type of matrix.  Or maybe its a spiritual awakening type thing.  Like we are on one spiritual plane and spirits and other things are on different spiritual planes.  And one day we all  grow spiritually past the need for a body and just become a soul.

I just paid my first month's rent.  I have my most beautiful friend, Arda here and I had to pay the pet deposit and it was fucking $400! But i should get that back later.  I will be paying an extra $100 for the next few months.  but rent isnt too bad.  With the pet fee its $325 which really isn't that bad and when I'm done with the fee it will only be $225.

So this movie was kind of stupid and almost decent at the same.  Don't look at her!! Shes gonna be scary.....oh this is stupid....cheesy. well that was easy
aw now its sad again.  well that wasn't too shabby.  I gave it 3 out of 5 stars.  I love watching netflix.  its so great to have wifi and we able to watch whatever.  I like watching new and different things.

scary movie day with Corey.  This one is British.  That makes it better. This one is called Exorcismus. So this  is way more interesting.  Still has a couple cheesy parts but overall way better.  She's gonna start crawling on walls and shit. I;m getting wicked chills right now.
Here's the trailor: Exorcismus

Up next: The Caller.  About some girl who keeps getting calls from some random lady.  Looks pretty interesting. It's a fucking ghost time warp crazy shit.

Enraptured,
Mav

Got a good song of the day for you.
Goldfrapp - Slippage

I want chickens!

Life is crazy.  Are you ever sitting and thinking, "I can't believe I'm here now." Because you can't plan your life.  You can plan your things and activities but life is what happens around all that.  The relationships and memories created and developed.  And I wouldn't have ever thought I'd be doing what I'm doing.  But I'm glad.  I like who I am and where I'm going. So yesterday was my birthday.  I don't feel older but I guess I feel a bit different.  Wiser maybe.  It's crazy to think I'm wise.  Or that I used to be foolish and that I'm going to get ever more wise. 

I miss my dorm room.  It was very zen.  I don't miss being in Oxford really, but I am still creating that energy that that room had in it.  It's getting there.  One room at a time, slowly.

Today is a very chill day.  Literally, it is quite cold outside but its also chill here on the couch.  I've been drawing a lot lately. Here is a couple for a taste:

I'm watching American Dad but I have it turned down to about 7 and I have music playing (Iron & Wine) and the muttering I hear from the characters sounds like it is in Spanish or Japanese or something haha. 

There are friends we all have.  We were once the best of friends, but after spending time apart its just not quite the same.  I know that I have changed over the years.  I love who I am though and I don't want to be who I was.  I don't regret.  Regretting is pointless.  Everything is a journey and a lesson and happens for a reason.  Makes us who we are. It sucks though cause my old friend still thinks that we are best friends but really aren't and there is nothing to say.  It's awkward and I find yourself struggling just have anything to say or even caring what they are talking about.  I cherish the relationship we had but I am also aware that despite the old saying ("Love will come and go, but friends last forever") which is totally untrue.  Because love is what lasts.  Even when it ends it sticks with you, forever.  Friends come and go.  The unfortunate truth. Of course love will get mixed up in friendship.  Friends like a brother or sister and they can hurt to lose (DISCLAIMER: there are exceptions to every rule. Some friends do last forever.  I am in no way saying that it can't happen, its just more unlikely.  When you find that person though that you totally connect with it is more likely that you will stay close because you will grow to love them in some form)  but relationships can only grow closer or farther apart, and I think its fading.  

It just gets annoying when every time I invite them out there is some excuse as to why they cant go and they continuously say they can go then bail at the last second (which is more annoying than saying no in the first place) also when they don't even ever invite me to anything why do I even try?

So no more ranting. Here's some good words. 

"In a gentle way, you can shake the world." Mahatma Gandhi

Mav

Back to Black - Amy Winehouse

(Sorry about the bleeping words )

arg, we be pirates

Today I was nannying and I was playing a game with Clara pretending to be spies.  I was technically at "Spy Camp" to learn to be a spy and we were having story time and she was pulling these old books off the bookshelf.  I had never looked closely at the bookshelf.  Honestly, I hadn't spent hardly any time in that living room aside from when I came for the interview.  Even then I didn't really look around. I was minding my p's and q's.  Well Clara was pulling the books out and I was intrigued by them because she was pulling out these old photos and notes out of them.  I asked her if I could read them and they were notes from a girl talking about how much she liked this guy.  They didn't seem too old, maybe from the 40's/50's/60's ish (written on note cards) and I was excited at finding them.  In another book there was a note card with a note from a boy to a girl telling her how she would fall in love one day no matter how much she hated it (I think he loved her and she blew him off and that's why he was saying that).  At the end of that note it said, "There is an inscription and a passage marked for you," and I started to scour the book looking for it, but I couldn't find it and Clara and Quinn were all crazy so we put up the books and went into the kitchen.  So Clara wanted to play pirates and so we found this old box full of pictures from when her dad was a kid in the 70's.  One from when he was just a little baby.  It was cool to show Clara those because in one it was his 4th birthday which is just one year younger than Clara.  She then asked me to pick a game and I said lets find something in the house that we haven't ever found before and as Clara went around I went straight back to the books.  I looked through that same book again then started going through the other books.  There were only about five that were old.  I wanted to find that passage the boy (his name was David) wanted her to read.  I saw this book of Longfellow poems and I thought well maybe it was a poem (it made sense to me).  I started looking through it and came across this letter.  Not written on a notecard, written on old paper and all in cursive.  I opened it and looked at the date.  April 1st, 1896.  WHAT A FIND! I got so excited.  I read it out loud to Clara and Quinn (though I don't think they were really listening).  It has bad English and sounds almost as if it is written by a black gentleman.  I love it so much.  It's so beautiful and romantic.  This is how it read:

April 1th 1896

Miss Dausie Rogers,

Darling girl,
as I am due you a letter I will try to answer with great pleasure while you or not thinking about any body down here but if the people here is not thinking about you there is one that is. well how did you enjoyed the preeching I was surprised when I saw you coming I thought you was going to stay untill School was out I had given up all hope of ever seeing you down here any more- will you be glad when your School will be out shure nuff.  but from the way you talked Sunday I did not think you would or did you mean it when you said you was going back I took it for a joke but I doesnt no when you or joking it is all trice with me. but a boy that loves a girl like I do you cant help from beleiving what thay say but that is the way the girls want thim so that thay can have some fun. I hope you care more than that for me. but you never say any thing a bout your fellow that you get your letters from I thought you would say something a bout him Sunday but thay was not a word said a bout him but that a girl never says any thing about a boy when thay care any thing a bout him. when or you coming home again it will seem like a long time if it is not but two weeks the time seems as longer to me as it does to you. well I will close for this time answer soon.
I remain as ever your true friend
T. H. Kennemer

Isn't that just so damn wonderful? I am so happy with this find.  In the back of that book it had been written that Thomas H. Kennemer and Dausie Rogers were married on December 23, 1896.  They also had two kids, Jakley (born Oct 31, 1897 [Happy Hallows Eve]) and Robby (born Nov 9, 1900).  Happy to see that she did, in fact, care for him.

I've been doing some sketches lately, and I am working on a poem.  As soon as it is complete I will put it on here.

intrinsically,
Mav

Upward Over the Mountain by Iron & Wine
(No music video, this was the best quality, but there are a bunch of live versions on youtube if that would suit your searching fancy.)