Pissed Away Fifty Dollars These Past Ten Days

I am completely utilizing my new planner.  I love it!!  My brother got it for me for Christmas.  It works best when I use bright colors to mark things.  I have about ten different color highlighters that I use.  I love to pour over it and make it pretty and write down everything that I do.  It's satisfying when I find that I marked off everything to do that day.  I keep stickers paper-clipped on the back cover to put on those days to reward myself. Yesterday, I gave myself a little penguin because I completed everything I had down to do.  I am over halfway done with everything I meant to do today, since I am blogging at this very moment....!!!!
INTENSITY!

It's been pretty slow at work.  Everyone is at the big Steering Committee Meeting this week.  The only people here are Kevin, Kathy, and myself.  Stan might be here too, I can't tell.  He is so quiet. I got a new cubicle and I have a nice window now.  It's a "reduced" size cubicle, but I love it even more than the full size one I used to have.  Probably because it is all mine. I brought my wall clock today and hung it up and brought my ninja bunny cord wraps. I have a black and a pink one.  They are so darn cute.  I don't even want to use my headphones so I can just have them hanging there looking adorable.  It's nice that there is no one here.  I am pretty much left in peace to do my work (or not do my work [for shame]), because the other people who are here are on the other side of the whole office and never have any reason to come over to me at all.  So I'm getting a little spoiled this week.  Next week it'll be back to work as usual I suppose. *sigh*
I've been thinking that I really want to get a fish for my office.  I want a Betta (more properly known as the Siamese Fighting Fish) since they are solitary.  I have been researching tanks that would work, because I want something that isn't going to make hardly any noise of course.  It's debatable though as to whether I can even have one.  I'll have to ask my bossy boss when everyone gets back next week.  But I found this one tank and in the video it seemed to be really quiet and some of the reviews talked about how it was quiet.  One woman even had it in her office. So it may be a possibility yet!
I'd also like to have a plant, but I am going to way for that until spring so I can get a nice pretty, healthy one. I've been looking at Feng shui to try and get that in my office, because I am big on comfort and want to feel at peace and sort of a home away from home at my office space.  Let's face it, I spend nearly as much time here as at my actual home so I want to love it; if only a little.

My brother (I have two and this is the other from the one previously mentioned) has asked me to create him a drawing.  I don't know if any of you follow me on Instagram (TympanicPulse) but I've been in a more geometric mood lately.  My brother loves that sort of thing and wants me to do one so as soon as I get done with it (probably by the next time I blog) I will be sure to upload it on here along with its predecessors.  Maybe I'll even put one in my cube! It's good to have artwork around, even more so if you did it yourself and are really proud of it (helps if it's good too then you will get lots of compliments to make your head swell, whoop whoop!).  I think I will definitely do that.  I'll have to write down to get wire hangers at Walmart this weekend (TO THE PLANNER!!).

So I've been sick for about the last 3 1/2 weeks.  It's had varying degrees of miserableness, but mostly it's sucked.  This week I've got the coughs and its horrible because I can't take any real medicine (if you don't know why, read previous post).  Last night though when my boyfriend took me on a date (we went to P F Chang's. It was soooo good! I got the mandarine chicken and a small side of Sichuan green beans and mixed it and tons of spicy, sweet, tangy sauces and got to eat the rest of it for lunch!) and we were in the movie after dinner (we saw Taken 2, it was good but I'll be honest I wasn't raving afterwards or anything like after The Dark Knight Rises) I was coughing some and a couple times I coughed and got this sharp pain in my right side.  It was only for a moment and then subsided, but it concerned me.  It happened again when we were back at the apartment watching tv in bed and I coughed.  And it happened once more today at lunch when I leaned forward to pet my most beautiful friend, Arda, but that time I wasn't coughing.  Those are the only four times, but I think I should maybe so see the doctor because I would hate to have an irritated appendix or something and not do anything about it and it get worse. In fact I am going to call right now...
And at 8:30 in the morning I will be finding out just what is wrong with me.  Hopefully nothing.  They want me to fast in case I have to take any tests O_O  I made it super bright and important in my journal. Let's pray there is no emergency surgery involved.  If there is thought lets pray it goes well haha.

So my song of the day today I actually had as my song of the day on Facebook one day last week.  It just rocks my socks off.  Have a listen to I Miss the Misery by Halestorm. I heard this song on the radio and immediately fell in love with it.

Also the movie of the week is Les Misérables.  This movie is phenomenal.  Everyone should see it.  Be aware that it is an operetta (which means they sing nearly the whole time, less than 100 words normally spoken).  You get used to it, and the singing is wonderful, but it is something to be aware. It's not exactly the easiest movie to watch but it is so worth it.  I loved it.  I laughed and cried.  All the actors did a wonderful.  Anne Hathaway and Hugh Jackman go above and beyond.  Really it's a must see on the big screen.

Believe it or not, I actually got some work done while typing on this.

Unbelievably,
Mav


"A chip on the shoulder is too heavy a piece of baggage to carry through life." John Hancock

 There is an example of what I have been up to. More to come!

I think I just heard a gunshot....

I have stretch marks!! How did this get past me?  It's not like I'm fat or anything or pregnant or even really grossly, body builder muscular.  I mean I have gained weight since high school, sure, but who the fuck hasn't? For the record, in high school I was too skinny really at 5'10" and 135 lbs.  That's really small, definitely not in the bell curve of the spectrum, but more on the outer edges.  It's not the end of the world of course because they are pretty much totally invisible unless I hike my leg up almost over my shoulder and shine the light just right (I guess in a way that's a blessing) but it irks me that I have them at all.  I just barely have a bit of chub and everyone compliments my legs and ass.  They are like my best feature and now they have been marred by these horrible trenches (well not my ass, they are just on my back inner thigh, but still marred!!).  This calls for drastic measures as far as getting back into some sort of shape so as to avoid further complicating the problem. I've never been so upset about something so superficial and that makes me peeved at myself. But it's not a sin to want to look good, right? Just because I'm a forward thinking woman doesn't mean I have to wear clothes that don't fit and no makeup and my hair in a ponytail all the time.  I'm not a feminist!  (No offense to actual feminists because I know that's not what you are all like. I was just making a joke, but if you got offended by that statement anyway its probably because you are a feminist who dresses like a man and I say to you that you need to quit being a stereotype. Feminism is about being a woman.  Embrace those womanly qualities like your breasts and ass and cut throat sense of manipulation and use it to put men in their place! But I digress....)

So I have been doing this blog officially for one year and one week. You will all be so excited to know that one of my New Years resolutions is to blog more. I have a planner that I got for Christmas and I plan to actually write it in if I have to. I'm interesting and the world deserves to know what I think.

I got arrested after Christmas for possession and now I have to do this stupid drug testing program for six months.  Staying off the God-given plant isn't the problem, but I'm not allowed to have alcohol either and even the tiniest traces will show up and send me to jail.  They told us to get rid of everything that has alcohol in it (body wash, toothpaste, mouthwash, hand sanitizer, etc) because it will show up on the test.  So my darling boyfriend and I looked through all my toiletries last night and found everything that I use that has alcohol in it (any kind of alcohol at all, even if it was the last ingredient, I wouldn't risk my freedom on it) and I put them all in a box and tucked them away in the closet.  So today I went to Walmart to find new (alcohol free) toothpaste, conditioner, and body lotion. (Damn, I forgot to look for perfume, but I doubt I would have found any, all of mine contained alcohol)  I spent an hour in Walmart to find these three things.  The toothpaste was the easiest. Basically a toothpaste with no mouthwash (e.g. scope).  I got the Crest Complete.  Then I tried to find the conditioner.  Shampoos do not have alcohol in them, but all conditioner does (even the organic ones!) so I had to settle for a 2 in 1.  I looked at several of these and apparently 2 in 1 shampoo/conditioners do not contain any alcohol.  The biggest bitch of them all those was the lotion.  Almost every single kind of lotion out there has some sort of alcohol (cetyl, stearyl, lanolin, you name it) except for one kind that was a whopping $15 per 4 oz tube (I tried to look up the name of it on the Walmart website but it didn't list it, [it starts with an A] in fact it didn't list any of the stuff that I bought, so your Walmart may have a wider variety of alcohol free products).  So I felt at a loss.  I did carry that tiny bottle around with me for about 15 minutes, but then I noticed the sun screen isle and thought maybe I could get some sort of sun tan lotion.  I thought maybe in the kids brands there would be less alcohol, but this was not so, they may have even contained more.  But finally I found some equate version of banana boat for kids that contained none but it wasn't so much lotion as just sunscreen.  Then after putting away the ridiculously expensive shit and holding the sunscreen I saw the aloes and most of them were not lotion in anyway, but thin and all containing alcohol when to my luck and joy I saw a bottle called Ocean Potion: moisturizing aloe LOTION! and its got vitamins D3, A, E & C and antioxidants and tea tree oil. It also smells phenomenal.  If I apply this regularly it should help with the aforementioned stretch marks as well. And at a very reasonable $5 for a 20.5 oz bottle I felt I had hit the jackpot.  Luckily some of the things I already owned were alcohol free so for those of you going through the same thing I am I will tell you what is ok to use if you are going through crazy drug testing:

• Lorel Go 360 Clean facewash (with the little scrubber): NOTE: I use the light blue topped bottle with the creamy kind for sensitive skin.  I can't vouch for the other kinds, they could all have alcohol in them.
• Toothpastes that DO NOT contain any mouthwash type agent. 
• Ocean Potion Moisturizing Aloe Lotion
• White Rain body washes
• Proactiv cleanser, but NOT the green tea moisturizer. 
• Degree for men deodorant (that is the gel kind), but NOT the antiperspirant one (the one that is the white creamy bar) 
• Crest mouthwash, but really any mouthwash that says alcohol free on the front.  These are common.

Bottom line, if you have to be this conscious of the alcohol content in your toiletries then you should just go ahead and check the ingredients label of everything.  

Overall, I feel like I will get through this testing program without any problems, now that I have acquired the necessary alcohol free items.  And in case any of you were wondering since I am basically a saint and don't have so much as a parking ticket on my record I get to do the deferred course which is only six months as opposed to the full program which is 1-3 years. AND since I haven't partook in the God-given plant since New Years (don't judge, its a celebration!) then I am going to be clean even faster so I don't have to go to these terrible court sessions.  That's the other perk to the deferred course. The regular course meets every Friday for Drug Court and it lasts from 9 AM until noon.  I don't have that kind of time.  I have a legit, demanding job.  I only have to go for the next couple weeks while I get clean and while my status is still pending. So I wont have to go back to court until I graduate the program in July, unless I fail a drug test which wont happen because I took extra precautions with my toiletries and I wont have any trouble at all staying clean and I barely drank before so that will be super easy.  I wonder what it's going to be like when I get totally clean and have absolutely no alcohol in my system?  Will I feel different? 

So since I kind of dished a lot of dirt about myself today the song of the day will reflect its juicy nature.

Heard it Through the Grape Vine by Creedence Clearwater Revival

You can take the weed out of the hippie, but you can't take the hippie out of the girl.

Honestly,
Mav

Stoner Thoughts on Life's little Eccentricities Part 2

It's been really rainy out and I'm loving it.  It's so quiet and peaceful. You can hear the geese honking.  I'm sitting on my back porch smoking a ciggy.  I would love to live in the city.
So Alive.

Good Flick.

I think that 71 degrees is the perfect temperature for my apartment.  I'm completely comfortable.

My boyfriend is doing really good tonight in call of duty.  I think it's just cooler to watch because I'm cookie crisp.

I wish I could explain what just occurred between myself and my roommate.  We were discussing the end of the world and when the next year would be 12/12/12.

I made some homemade cookie biscuits.  They are good.  I would serve them at breakfast.  Put syrup on them.  Or molasses?!!

The amazing world of Gumball.  Watch it.
How creepy would it be if the sun was a big smiling face just looking down at us.
Sometimes I daydream about living in the wilderness away from everyone and living off the land.  Walking through the trees and shit.  I think it'd be cool.  It would be great just to be away from people.  Get a couple dogs, have my Arda.  Eat fresh grown veggies and hunt.  Hell yea.

We're all just people.
Guys get man caves.  I want a woman cave.  But I think I'll call it something else.  Maybe it will be my den.  Personal den.  It's gonna have dark room and a couch and my chair.  And I think I need to have bookshelves of some sort.  I would put my tv in there with my Xbox too.  And I'll have a rug and a fishtank. It's where I'd do a lot of my crafty things.

Got a free razor in the mail.  Sweet!

Country Song - Seether
Think I got a good song for y'all.

Ripped,
Mav

Stoner Thoughs on Life's little Eccentricities

I am just so much better at thinking out loud in a way that seems partially interesting when I'm stoned.  People dis weed for some unknown reason. The one thing I dont like is that I get distracted.

I'm hungry.

Watch AFV is great. So funny.  I have this necklace that I really like and I am wearing it now and I feel fancy.  So I just wear it naked. Haha I originally wrote baked twice by accident but its true too hahahahaha. Fully reccoment watch the Hard Times of RJ Berger.  It's fucking hilarious.

So I don't know if you've ever watched team oomizoomi on NickJr but it's not bad.  But I always think its funny how they say something and then pause to wait for an answer lol like they are insane.

I like that little oomi car though.

I wish that I lived somewhere that we got a lot of snow so I could build a snowman and put funny things on it like an inner tube.
They have this thing called oomi goggles. And it's just you putting your hands up to your face and the little cartoons do it and I imagine them as really enthusiastic teen group leaders at a kids camp.

The show bubble guppies is weird.  I can't imagine living underwater.  Your stuff would always be weat and we would get cold.  But on the show they are going camping and have a sleeping bag so I guess it would keep you warmer but you'd still get really cold.  I like that little outside song though.
How did they get to outer space and are still underwater? is their whole universe inside the snow globe of some other dimension?
Since when are there bears on the dark side of the moon? Are they escaped NASA test subjects that somehow learned to thrive in the low gravity vacuum of the moon's surface.
Keep the balloon off the ground with a five year old while warm and toasty. Win.
I'm totally gonna build wicked forts with my kids.

I kind of look forward to getting where I need glasses because I think they will look really good on me.  All hipster and shit.
I love That 70's Show.  Hyde is dreamy.
I think I'll watch the Office next.
But Hyde can be a real twat because of how he gets Eric so good with burns.  I like those special times where Red is proud of something Eric did.
I look like such a stoner right now.

Sex and Candy by Marcy Playground

Shout out to my bestie: Build Me Up Buttercup: The Foundations

Happily,
Mav

Arda enjoying the cozy fire.

Some new art.

He's happy because he's insane!

So I haven't been updating much lately.  Getting ready for the holidays and trying to figure out how to tell the people I nanny for that I'm quitting the end of december so I can start my new office job that is full time with set hours and free weekends.  can't beat that.  no sirree.

I wonder if i just have less to say.  I put up my tree this week.  I love it. we just put lights on it.  it's cute and fun.  We want to slowly add ornaments over time.  so it'll be fun.  I got a bunch of stocking stuffers for them as well.  I would mention them on here but I don't want my boyfriend to read it and then his surprise be ruined.  he is so bad about trying to figure out every gift I get him.  that ruins the whole point of it being a surprise! lol

over the weekend i invited an old friend from high school over to catch up and bake and my roommate that isnt my boyfriend has this girl that he is trying to be with and she is like super self conscious about being around other people and everytime they come over here he kicks us out of our own apartment.  and this time i told him i was having a friend over on tuesday and thursday he is like what time are yall gonna be out of here because my girl is coming over.  I was like i hadn't planned to leave but.... and he just was like cool be out by 9 if you can.  dillhole.  its my apartment too.  i left this time but next time he does that i'm gonna be like no i already made these plans you can find somewhere else to go.

i'm looking forward to christmas break.  i'm also looking forward to having paid time off and vacation days and holidays off and stuff.  am i getting sucked into the daily grind?  I need to keep my mind free.

one of my best friends is coming to visit in the next couple weeks and i'm really excited because i haven't seen him in like a four months and we are going to make crafts and get toasty and have a fire.  its going to be fun and my boyfriend will be there and we are probably going to go bowling which I LOVE to do. haha.  I hate it when its really crowded though.  i just don't care for crowds.  but when its less crowded it can be a lot of fun.  I went with my family during thanksgiving and we had a lot of fun.

kyle wants me to get my own shoes.  I will eventually.  and my own ball.

i've been smoking less cigarettes.  I only smoked 2 today.  yay progress!! idk if i will totally give it up until i get pregnant. but i think i'm ok with 2 or 3 a day.  thats not that bad.

consistently,
Mav

Ecclesiastes 5:2

First things first....

My office job that I work at has recently asked me to go full time and I am totally going to go for it.  Don't get me wrong.  I love nannying and the kids but at the same time it just does not pay the bills. I'm also going to be starting school in the Spring and Southern Co (the people I work for) will pay partial tuition.  Probably has a limit of money (like up to $1000 or something) but since I'm only going to be taking one or two classes a term it may just pay for all of it.  Which is...
phe
nom
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nal.
But that wont start until January.

I went to the Eric Church concert the other day when it came into town.  Opened with Kip Moore and Justin Moore.  It was a good show.  I like Eric Church but a couple of the songs I was unaware of and one I really liked was Creepin'.  It has this amazing Louisiana bayou sound that just makes my heart crave. I went with my boyfriend who is a huge Eric Church fan and now I see why.  He put on a fantastic show.  Dude is a nutter.  Our friend got this great picture of him from in front with his leg all kicked and there is smoke its just a silhouette.  I got this good picture during that song mentioned above.

But the show was great I got a t-shirt for it since it was my first concert with my boyfriend and also they had cool t-shirts haha. 

Here is another photo from the opening act of Justin Moore where he got everyone to turn on their cell phone lights and he sang this sweet song but it was so pretty to see all those lights.  It was much cooler when I was there but here is an idea of it. 

So I watched this movie the other day that really stuck with me.  It's called Forget Me Not (and that's the trailor).  When I first started watching it I thought it was going to be some typical shitty slasher teen film but it actually ended up being really good and it was a mind twister.  I loved how the story changed after deaths and how you didn't really know what was going on until it all came together at the very end.  Even at the end you were still left wondering about some things.  Not in a unsatisfying way but in like a that's messed up and crazy and great kind of way.  I would definitely recommend everyone give it a looksie.  If you aren't a big scary movie person well get over it because this movie is more than just scary movie.  It's suspense and drama and the acting is good and its got a good twist.  I am making this movie of the now. Watch it!!

Here's a quote for you.

"Experience is the child of thought, and thought is the child of action." Benjamin Disraeli

Exhausted,

Mav

You get two today :) Enjoy.

Get Together - The Youngbloods

(I like the 60's montage in the background)

And two:

Sunny Afternoon - The Kinks

Last first Saturday of November in 2012 ever! (the only one)

Ever notice how almost all scary movies are 'happy family moves into a new house and then things start happening'.  I'm watching the Haunting in Salem and these people get a house for free.  I don't know if I'd want to buy a house for free because that is really too good to be true.  It would have to be free because there was something terribly wrong with it.
Damn shit just happening right when they get there.
THAT'S WHERE IT LIVES!

It would suck to wake up and think you are really awake but really its a dream.  That would suck.  Then when you actually did wake up you would always wonder if you were really awake. What if we are really all just asleep and the world really is some type of matrix.  Or maybe its a spiritual awakening type thing.  Like we are on one spiritual plane and spirits and other things are on different spiritual planes.  And one day we all  grow spiritually past the need for a body and just become a soul.

I just paid my first month's rent.  I have my most beautiful friend, Arda here and I had to pay the pet deposit and it was fucking $400! But i should get that back later.  I will be paying an extra $100 for the next few months.  but rent isnt too bad.  With the pet fee its $325 which really isn't that bad and when I'm done with the fee it will only be $225.

So this movie was kind of stupid and almost decent at the same.  Don't look at her!! Shes gonna be scary.....oh this is stupid....cheesy. well that was easy
aw now its sad again.  well that wasn't too shabby.  I gave it 3 out of 5 stars.  I love watching netflix.  its so great to have wifi and we able to watch whatever.  I like watching new and different things.

scary movie day with Corey.  This one is British.  That makes it better. This one is called Exorcismus. So this  is way more interesting.  Still has a couple cheesy parts but overall way better.  She's gonna start crawling on walls and shit. I;m getting wicked chills right now.
Here's the trailor: Exorcismus

Up next: The Caller.  About some girl who keeps getting calls from some random lady.  Looks pretty interesting. It's a fucking ghost time warp crazy shit.

Enraptured,
Mav

Got a good song of the day for you.
Goldfrapp - Slippage