Threat level Midnight!

I have two computer screens at work and I was able to get one picture to stretch across both of them finally! It's a beach in Australia, where I'm thinking about movie one day, and it's sunset and it's so pretty and it makes me want to be there so badly.  For anyone who has never been there it is b-e-a-utiful and it's outdoorsy and there is the coolest wildlife.  If I want to write I can still send it to the states or submit it online. So it's a win win.  I like to think of it as my own little walkabout.  I need to get away from what is normal for me and really challenge my views.  I know there are more diverse places to go than Australia, but Australia is just so great and I want to learn to surf.  There is also the Great Barrier Reef which is on my bucket list to dive. And just think of the cool ass stoned posts I'll put up from fucking AUSTRALIA! Look forward to it readers because I know I am.

I was taking a hike a few days ago with my friend for his birthday.  We ended up hiking for like 4 hours and 8 miles up and down a damn mountain!  On our way back to the car we were walking along the road and we came up to about five coppa cars and a bunch of yellow police tape stretching between the trees.  In the middle of all that tape was an abandoned looking SUV (I think an xterra) and a couple coppas taking photos of the ground.  There were two more coppas and a state park officer as well.  To my best assumptions what my and I were viewing was indeed a crime scene. We deduced that suicide made the most sense but couldn't rule out murder.  The next day my friend found out it was someone we knew!  He killed himself.  Rest in peace lost soul.  I will see you again across the sea.

I wrote a new poem.  Wouldst thous liketh to read it? Good!


Let me be Addicted

I feel it on my skin

on the tips of my hairs – wet, sticky, high
it’s everywhere just in my reach
keep going
can’t stop
gotta have it
gotta taste it
need it, need you
I need the dry roll of my tongue on my mouth
the buzz of my muscles torquing under my skin – ridged, tensed, let me be addicted

I hear it in my head
every cell responding to its siren song – warm, full, burned 
can’t say hello without breathing you in 
have to feel you to say goodbye 
don’t stop 
take me with you
lead me, love me 
love the heavy lull of my eyes looking through you 
the slow smile lurking on my face – lucid, devious, let me be addicted



1st Song of the day is Olly Murs - Troublemaker
2nd Song of the day is Porn Star Dancing - My Darkest Days

Dancing,
Mav

Where one door closes, a few windows unlock.

Broke up with my boyfriend.  I moved back home to live with my brothers.  I'm pretty much loving it.  I was feeling smothered and tied down and I was getting the itch to move and explore and experience and he just wanted to settle.  The whole twisted, complicated weird annoying story isn't worth relaying because this blog isn't about gossip and horrible reality tv type nonsense but in depth thoughts for the in depth thinker.  Like poor little Pluto and homosexuality and drugs and.... acne!... and stuff.

I saw Django last night and it was great.  Fantastic Tarantino film.  I definitely recommend you all go and see it asap.  RedBox it, dollar theatre, buy it, borrow it, rent it, steal it! Whatever it takes!! I should warn you though that it does have some pretty brutally brutal scenes with lots of hardcore gore. Not a childrens movie.  The movies features Leonardo DiCaprio and Jamie Foxx (who is so sexy if I do say so myself) and it's set a couple years before the civil war and there is this one scene where I think DiCaprio cuts his hand by accident midscene and just acts through it and it makes it that much better! Genius!

Right now I am just putting stuff from the move away in my room.  I love my room.  It's perfect.  Everyone says so.  It's the best room ever.  I think it's because I've decked it out so perfectly its like a part of my soul almost.  It's cozy.  My own wonderland teapot cottage.

OMG I FOUND YOU!!!! I am just so happy.  Something about you speaks to me.

Single by Natasha Bedingfield

You Don't Own Me by Leslie (fucking) Gore!
This is an actual video of her performing the song.  It's not just like the recorded version but it's just as profound and meaningful.

Damn, subtle barbs

On Futurama, if they knew how to preserve the head why wouldn't they preserve the rest of the body? They should just make the whole thing not age.  I really don't think all this stuff on this show is actually going to happen in a thousand years.  Who knows, it might.  I doubt though that we will find that many different species of aliens.  Wouldn't they have already contacted us?  What's the hold up guys? If you're out there and you really are flying in the sky causing light shows over area 51 (and other assorted locations) why wouldn't you make your presence known?  Are we like some wild creature out in the savanna to you? (British voice) "Here we are getting a glimpse at the rare Homo sapiens, commonly known as humans.  Currently there are only 7 billion left in the whole universe.  Due to a great many legislative bills this small planet of their natural habitat has been preserved.  The humans are quickly outgrowing this and we may soon see a drop in their numbers.  It is likely some may branch out and learn to live in our developed zones, but it is uncertain.  For now, we can only watch in wonder as these magnificent creatures go about their daily lives."  But seriously guys.....at least clear up the conspiracy!

Damn my netflix is going slowing than a snail.

Soon I'll be getting my own little den in my apt because my annoying roommate is moving out.  I'm gonna put my favorite wing back chair in there and I think we should get a love seat.  I love love seats. They are the perfect size.  Except for napping, unless its an exceedingly deep love seat, then it may do well afterall.  My Mamaw had a love seat where either half could recline and it was so comfortable.  I'm going to put my tapestry in there.  Then I'm getting a record player and bringing my piano over so I can play more.  It'll be my little sanctuary.  I can also have friends over to toke and go back there.  At least after October 18.  I look forward to my roommate leaving, not only because I am basically taking over his room but because he causes our power bill to go up.  When he leaves his door closed all the warm air stays in there and so it continuously runs because it never gets warm in the rest of the apt and the temperature reader is out here.  It's ridiculous.  Our power bill for this tiny little apartment is like $150 every month.  That's crap!  I bet our water bill will go down too because we wont have a third person taking long hot showers.  It's a good thing.

I want some teacups.  Like nice little dainty type ones.  So I can have teatime in my new den.  (We are gonna put the hookah back there too!)

screw Netflix, I'm putting on Daria.  She won't let me down.

Eh! I hate it when the pudding has skin!

I want a pocket watch.

For Whom the Bell Tolls by Metallica

Rebel Yell by Billy Idol
Hotty Toddy

Intrinsically,
Mav

Not a beach body, but still a babe

So I'm watching another movie.  House on Haunted Hill.  Made in 1959, so hopefully it will be good.  This is back when the shrill scream was tops in film making.  That iconic shriek.

Mm I want a cigarette. So I'll have one!

Ah opening credits. I bet that's a pretty house in color.  Just a bored rich guy that wants to kill people.

I'm so out of place in an office.  It's boring.  I don't know when or how to talk to anyone.  And they all say I'm so quiet.  Am I just supposed to walk up to people working and start talking?  I don't know what they are doing or if it's important.  What if they don't want to be bothered?  They are always saying I need to be more engaged but the few times I've reached out it's been met with awkwardness.  And no one ever reaches out to me except David (I think he sees me as a daughter since he has three and no sons).  Most of that is just "How you doing?" "Very good." "Keep at it." (All right together but still, hardly a real conversation).  I'm just not friend with anyone and I don't really see that changing.  I'm just so much younger than everyone else.  There is this gap and even if I had things to say I think they don't think I'd know what they are talking about because I'm younger.  God, I know a lot.  Probably more than a lot of them because I'm not stuck in their tiny PhD bip of life that gives them tunnel vision to the rest of the world.  I don't really think they are all bigoted but they sure aren't giving me anything else to go on.  Everyone else it's a quick hello (if that).  I just don't belong here.  I'm so out of my element.  (Just now [because I'm at work] I said bye to Mark and he was right by my cube and he didn't say anything and I know he heard me because he heard Kelly who is farther away and said bye to her...how am I supposed to reach out to that?)

I made a paper airplane out of a post-it note.  It is really crappy.  I named it the flea because it bites.  Yuk yuk yuk.

White Blank Page by Mumford & Sons
I don't think it's the actual music video but I think it might be. I don't know.  I like it though and you get to actually see the band.  I hate how when you type shit into YouTube and it just pulls up a bunch of covers.  If I wanted to watch a cover I'd search COVERS.  It's annoying, I just want to watch the actual video.


Talking to my mommy,

Mav

PS I got another poem published!

Here it is... a Mav original

Rose Colored Glasses

Rose colored glasses
refracted brilliant sunlight
into the deepest layer of cornea,

burning a hole
through humanity's truth,
alighting the consummate fantasy.

If no one wants to listen to me ramble about movies that probably wont make sense, then don't read this. I mean it, I'm not being cute.

There's not a whole lot I enjoy more than watching movies and analyzing them.

Leviathan
From my birth year so lets see how it stacks up.  Hopefully, it does some justice. (I got a hangnail and it hurts pretty horribly).  Oo it's all futuristic like we can actually have people sitting at the bottom of the ocean just because they have bitchin' suits.  Day 87 of 90...it's always the 11th hour.  at that depth they would have much smaller viewing holes on their masks or they'd all get.  OO is he gonna die?  stuffs fucking all up...ooo his heads gonna blow!  aw...survival of the lamest.  He is gonna have some serious brain trauma though with that kind of air loss.  Hey that's the guy from home alone and he is still a dick.  I love sci-fi. I think the doctor has gone crazy.  Cabin fever or some shit.  They are miles down and he is talking about being on the golf course. what?  I hope the monster is a squid or something better like a mega-jelly.  I hoe they don't slack.  That'll bite them in the ass.  Haha oh damn he's using gum to fix shit.  That's bad.
oh here it comes...fell off the south ridge.  now those are some big fake tube worms.  I bet they are gonna lose her. or both of them.  at least one of them.  There's the soviet ship.  There is no way there would be any sunlight down there.  ah leviathan is the name of the ship.  Since she found it first they are gonna lose her.  no doubt about it (she actually survives-post movie Mav).  oh wow what an ole computer system haha. why would he just go wondering off like a dumbass?  That would be so cool to find a sunken ship.  I like how the doctor is all into it now.  He's had his mind tweeked.  I would love to be there with that doctor trying to figure shit out.  It's sad to me that a geologist would find no interest in figuring out where this ship came from....oo i bet they are gonna fuck....oh yea there is the cheesy sweet love music. (i'm such a damn clutts...I just spilled root beer all over myself)  genetic alteration.  OOOO ZOMBIES AT THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA!!  ew fish mutant zombies. well its so bad that i can't stop watching.  It has a dead space feel to it and with the mutated people and stuff...but this thing is much slower than the fast little bitches on dead space.   oh thats somewhat ingenious.  lets all float to the top.  oh he sacrificed himself.  it's like a weird fish guy.. aw its so stupid it got its head chopped off.  the irony of having a fish as a pet at the bottom of the ocean....oh there isnt a hurricane at all.. congratulations you made it to the surface but now you are in the middle of the damn ocean.  I hope it gets them from below OR that the helicopter people just kill them....   hahahaha it came to the surface and got them.  ooo its trying to drown him.  Well that was hilariously cheesy and gross.  I think it's funny when movies from the eighties are being "futuristic" and its set in 2001 or 2006 and its completely unlike anything that we have.  It's like something that would be decades if not hundreds of years in the future.

The Thing
This one promises a better movie being that it is newer.  Oh haha, this is actually from 1982! so we will just see.  I hope its as classically cheesy as it should be.  The 80s were great for sci fi.  It was like the hot fad.
What am I gonna make for dinner?
wolves are beautiful creatures.
Man, what a young Kurt Russell.  handsome. I want a pretty husky dog.  I will have one too.  one day.  and there is a stereotypical black guy.  There is something to do with this dog that causes some sort of chaos.  And such a cute puppy too. maybe the dog turns into a dude at night. or maybe its a genetically mutated dog that is smart.  like Ein on Cowboy Bebop.  It's amazing how the film quality improved over 10 years from the 70's to the eighties.  It's almost like today when things aren't in (what's it called....) CG.  I bet the dog was found in the ice.  hm  interesting.  They are gonna get back and find all their buddies gone mad.  NO they brought the weird "thing" back to the shop with them and it had been burned.  I feel like its gonna be almost just like the movie I just watched but a little more cabin fever-y.  The body thing doesnt even look real.  Man, Kurt Russell is dreamy.  His eyes are wild and he's got this shaggy hair in this movie.  Mm, hunky! And he is kind of stoic in this movie and that gets me every time. YEA! Light that blunt!  That's where it's at. That's the job I need.  Aw I wouldn't want to let it just sit out with the other dogs.  It knows.  It's not a stupid dog.  It gets it and it's worried.  oh what the fuck!  the dog is the thing.  I knew it!!  I wish all the other puppies didnt have to die because of it.  Damn it man! walk faster!!!! NO! don't go in.
oh good.
I can't imagine how fucked up that would be if you were stoned.  To find a mutated spider dog thing.  Sickening.  I'd probably puke.  Oh he got the dog loving dude.  It already transmuted into him.  They gotta kill him.  It copies their genetic makeup perfectly.  No one can be trusted.  It can infiltrate our world without us knowing unless we catch it happening.  Like with all those dogs making noise.  Oh it's a space ship.  Nifty.  Now that's sci fi folks!  All in all this is already a much better movie than leviathan which was more so just disappointing and anti-climactic.  Ok scientists there is a fine line between research and common sense (I don't know if those actually go together).  They SHOULD just burn it!
That's really fake looking blood and a really hide looking character. Thats a creepy alien man.  Props to the people who did this movie.  What a disgusting life form.  To have to go through that process.  uck.  THat can't be pleasant at all......y'all missed one!
Haha just took an hour break to talk to my bestie :)
OO it's good because everyone trusts MacCready but he may be the one who is actually the thing.  This movie is actually very good and I think I'm going to give it my Movie of the Week!  There is no telling who is the thing.  Maybe it's all of them, but they don't know that they all are.  I think people don't even know if they are or not.  So they are trying to escape earth. Oh damn, that's fucked up.
Why does everyone go places alone? Hm, it's trying so hard but it just can't quite get it.
And then there was one.

What's next?  I'd let you vote, but it's a blog, not a radio show.

I'm going for The Andromeda Strain
Fresh from 1971. Win.  Diggin older sci fi movies.  Those are the fucking best!
This is so weird.  They aren't showing anything.  Based on all the ufo scares from then.  I bet this would have been super intense in its day.  (The washer is making really strange noise.  I heard a loud bang and a sudden clang.  It's creepy).  Man typewriters are trippy.  They are freaking out on speed or some shit.  Oh the 70s haha.  What a fancy house for it.  "I'll be safe as in your arms."  Good line, very good.  OO creepy big brother shit.  This is why everyone was all superstitious and conspiracy theorists.  The government just tapping into our phones and shit.
aw i had to put a bandaid on my pinky cause of that hang nail and now its weird to type.  OH! titties! haha
this movie is so awesomely old school

So I'm tired.  I'm going to play some LPB with my brothers.

Goodnight
Mav

Frog magnets and ergoBeads

I love my coffee mug.  I got it for work.  It’s red and blue (Hotty Toddy) buts it’s got a small orange stripe and green stripe in the middle.  There is another small green stripe at the top.  It holds my coffee.  It was one dollar at the dollar tree.  Win.

I got a little solar monkey that dances in the sun.  He dances a little in my desk light but in the afternoon when the sun hits him (which it won’t today because it’s so gloomy and rainy) he starts to dance; which is perfect because it’s like he is getting excited about the end of the workday.  He’s so cute.  He’s holding a banana in one hand and making a peace sign with the other.

I don’t know why I thought that once you got out of school there stopped being fire alarms.  It’s raining here and I just had to walk down six floors and stand in it for ten minutes.  Which compared to previous fire alarm experience isn’t too bad.  Once when I was a freshman in college I had to stand outside in a towel for 45 minutes because it was just after track practice and I was getting into the shower when the alarm went off.  Another time, I had to cross behind out building and stand in the car garage because it was pouring rain at 2:30 in the morning.  That time it took about an hour.  I was a freshman at Samford and they were very slow with their fire department and alarms.  It was annoying, but I transferred after that year so whatever.  But I guess I just, for some reason, thought it was a school thing.  A way for our superintendent to torture us or the foolish act of some drunken frat boy with his idiot fratastic friends egging him on. 

I want to do some more sociology and psychology classes.  I find people fascinating.  They are so weird and different.  I can’t wait to teach.  I’m gonna take them outside and I think it can be fun and I can make learning interesting.  Note time!

I work with this girl or she is on my floor and we share a break room and she will just talk to me which is whatever.  The problem is she mumbles horribly and then kind of trails off and turns and walks away chuckling uncomfortably and I have no idea what she said.  She never waits for a response so I just don’t say much of anything.  But if I did say something it was just be, “yeah, ha…” and it would be awkward because she is awkward.

Work is so lame.  There is nothing for me to do.

I started volunteering at the animal shelter this weekend.  It was pretty great.  I was mainly just getting back into the swing of everything.  It’s pretty chill right now though not being baby bird season.  Saturday was good I did kind of a normal, usual thing:  fed some birds, cleaned some pins.  But Sunday I got to feed the hawks and owls and I got to do the ducks and geese by myself which was fun.  The ducks will let you pet them and they get really close and peck at the shiny buttons on my pants.  The goose (Canadian) was a little twat jerk when I did him on Saturday with Daphne.  When I did him by myself on Sunday though I just sprayed him with the water hose and he quit honking and wouldn’t come at me.  I think he calmed down tremendously and I was able to clean his pin, feed and water him all by myself using the hose and a towel over my arm as a buffer.  Mainly I washed lots of dishes though.  It will be better in the summer, as in I’ll have more to do and with the new volunteers I won’t have to do all the nasty crap like laundry and dishes (WIN).  Sunday I went to refill the bird feeders and I slipped on a wet tree root and totally busted my ass.  I scraped my arm all up and spilled mealworms and bird seed all over me and down my shirt.  It was embarrassing but luckily no one was out there to see it happen.  I have so many bumps and bruises.  First the scrapes from falling on the root and then (working backwards) I was at the apt with my darling boyfriend and we were going to grill some porkchops that I decided, spur of the moment, to get at the store.  So he is cleaning up the dishes and asks me to drag it outside.  It’s one of those cheap ones you pour the charcoal into.  It’s a bigger one though and my right foot trips on one of our computer cords and the grills runs up on my leg and it gets kind of wedged on my calf and I have to pick the whole damn thing up to get it off and the next morning I had a huge ass bruise.  It’s all black and blue.  Two days later and it’s still gnarly looking.  Then on Friday we were at my brothers house playing LBP (carting and 2) (LOVE LBP!) and we were trying to get these bubbles in this one level and you have to grapple and swing on these moving things.  It’s a fucking nightmare and I am doing really good at the swinging and I get one really amazing swing in and I ALMOST get the very top bubble (the only one left, I had swung my boyfriend out to get two others, anyway) and I didn’t get it so I was like MAN and I kind of put my fist down on the arm of the couch in an, “Oh shoot,” sort of way and I didn’t realize that the arm of the cough was like solid wood and I caught my wrist right in the crease and it hurt so bad.  It didn’t bruise as much at first, but now it’s turning a sickly yellow color.  It’s still super sore.  I also spilled coffee all down the front of me yesterday…way to go Mav. 

On a grislier note, my roommate is moving out.  Not my boyfriend, but the other guy who pisses me off because he does no cleaning at all and always brings his bitchy girlfriend over who won’t even look at us and when she is around he is meaner.  I want to just have the apt to ourselves, just me and my baby and Arda, but my boyfriend insists on getting a roommate.  Yes the cheaper rent will be nicer but I just do not want a roommate.  I don’t know how some other person is going to be.  What if they are all up in my business and didn’t let me have my me time?  I’d go ape and they’d end up leaving.  I can barely stand the one we got now.  I told my boyfriend we should have interviews.  He laughed but I was serious.

Seriously,

Mav

Home - Phillip Phillips

This is my title.

So movie of the week is for shizzle The Grey.  It's got Liam Neeson. You need to make sure you give it a chance.  It can be frustrating at times given the high mortality rate, but it has some very redeeming moments that really bring it full circle and make it worthwhile.  I love the wolf psychology that is uncovered and delved into.  Wolves are one of the most interesting, complicated and beautiful creatures I think.  It did raise a few questions however.  I want to write into mythbusters and get them to do the part where he puts a shotgun shell on the end of a sharpened stick and when you jab it into something it hurts and or kills the wolf.  Maybe they have already done it.  I don't have cable so I can't get all the new sodes (as in episodes, but of course I could have just said that instead of going this round about route).  Haha the epidsode I'm watching they are doing the helium balloons to a lawn chair flight thing.  And they all look like a bunch of testicles strung together.

I got some new crafty things!  Some new ink wells in purple and teal.  I look forward to using that.  I also finally got a cheap 12 pack of watercolor pencils.  I really like using colored pencils when I draw and I can't wait to try them.  Finally, I got a hook and latch thing that's a happy face and a rainbow.  I like those because they are really time consuming and they keep my mind busy.  I also got a little glass votive to make a candle holder.

I don't have a huge amount of stuff to say.  I think I may have gotten some sort of promotion at work but its not fully been discussed and I don't think it's like an unsaid just internal label thing.  My boss said that something about me being the senior Q or something or other.  And that the new girl is kind of usurping my role and I'm moving up in the world I suppose.  (I'm a little off put by my fat roommate sitting naked in his room right now.)

Aw I want some baby ducks! I love ducks. I'm volunteering at the Wildlife Center and I get to feed all the baby birds.  We have some ducks right now.  That's where this was going.  I look forward to this coming spring/summer when all the baby birds really start coming in full force.  It will be so wonderful!

Truck Yeah! by Tim McGraw

Mav